[Aaron757]

@ltpg97

you sound like a wanderer. this would means that earth is not your native planet, but you chose to incarnate at this time in order to help others. the means of this help varies vastly because of the extreme variance of different planets/densities represented.

what all of these have in common is that they are vastly more harmonious and wise than earth. here's what ra says about it:

ra: i am ra. due to the extreme variance between the vibratory distortions of third density and those of the more dense densities, if you will, wanderers have as a general rule some form of handicap, difficulty, or feeling of alienation which is severe. the most common of these difficulties are alienation, the reaction against the planetary vibration by personality disorders, as you would call them, and body complex ailments indicating difficulty in adjustment to the planetary vibrations such as allergies, as you would call them.

note that there are a fairly large number of wanderers at this time. when ra was asked in 1981, he said 75 million.

and yes, i've actually felt this way from a very young age. for me, it mostly manifested itself as an extreme interest in almost all spiritual and religious topics. it was a slow and difficult realization that others didn't share this interest.

hmmm...keeping an open mind about "wanderers", this has me wondering about myself. born in '74, keen interest from the beginning about all things spiritual/supernatural/otherworldly, definately introverted/alienated (still struggle w/ this), severely asthmatic. i have always felt a deep concern for others, that there is something important that they aren't "getting", though i always thought it to be a lack of trust (with a capital t--trust of/for life), lack of inner peace. as a kid i was hyper-sensitive to the moods of adults, and could clearly see they had "lost something", that their lives were mundane and that they were very competitive about most things (and that i never wanted to be that way). as i grew, both my parents (moreso my dad) worked to "root me in reality" because my imagination was maybe too vivid, i wasn't interested in things everyday things like sports and i didn't understand the injustices of life. though never suicidal, i always looked forward to/was interested in death and what might come after. just didn't like it here all that much. i can understand why that would be disconcerting to adults.

over years and years i have always struggled to stay "rooted in reality", and am (as much as i can be) very reclusive, my mind filled with all kinds of thoughts about "what is real?". the real problem is that i have been taught this kind of thinking is wrong from an early age, and i question the wanderer thing as just being another flight of fancy/fantasy/wish fulfillment type of thinking that i've always had. one thing is certain and that is that i've never felt "at home" here, and i've never quite fit in among most "regular" people, even in my own family. i am very grateful however to have a mom and brother that seem to have some inkling of understanding of me, and possibly a hint of familiarity of these kinds of feelings (of alienation and being a little different from others--not so much aliens!), though they are both far more 'competitive' and willing to have/engage 'enemies' than i am. niether of them understand how i don't view the world in 'enemies'. this has actually caused rifts and problems in the past, just due to a complete inability to understand.

the discovery of the kind of information on dw's site a couple years ago kinda blew the doors off. "disclosure" has been a single-minded obsession ever since having my decades-long intuition that *we are not alone* validated so strongly. however i've never really considered whether or not i could actually be a wanderer--i'm almost afraid to let myself go down that path, as it could sever whatever small cord roots me in everyday life. i can just picture my dad doing backflips of disappointment over his son being just sooooo "out there"....haha. well, maybe i'll find out one day, in this life, the next or somewhere in between.

anyway, sorry for the hijack. this thread just got me thinking, and this is the first i've written or even given much thought to the possibility of being a wanderer.