when i think of myself losing grip on reality it is usually when i go into public places such as the mall or school. i find myself looking at all of the potential in everyone i observe and realize they aren't aware of it themselves or have the slightest clue! i find myself down at times because i try so hard to live with unlimited love and a positive understanding in my life and i can not find it in my own reality other than within myself. the farther i travel in my spiritual journey and path to enlightenment, the more disconnected i feel from that of my own reality and the people with in it. i often worry about those who will not awaken or be aware of what is going on. i know it is their own decision to dwell in the 3d and work out their own fear and karma or to raise their vibrations with love and positivity to make the shift from 3d to 5d. i wonder a lot to myself if by continuing to live each day with unconditional love and a positive understanding of all situations i encounter if i really am making a difference... am i really effecting those around me? is the unconditional love or positive spirit i carry each day really being manifested in those around me? sometimes i feel like i'm crazy to believe that the love, courtesy, and all embracing attitude i carry will change anyone's heart or character. being a young 20 year old college student with an immense curiosity that has initiated my journey, i feel somewhat overwhelmed by the greater cosmic/spiritual/evolutionary events taking place and by understanding that there are outer influences of higher and lower vibrational beings/entities. (i.e. good and evil) i guess the real reason i have this fear within is because i know i have no control over what happens or who with make the shift. if anyone can relate to any of my thoughts/feelings or can simply give me some words of wisdom/inspiration they will be greatly appreciated. one love, steven