[AlexanderDrew]

Last night, I was uploading some old photos onto facebook (for posterity) from when my kids were very little. These pictures were taken during the beginning of my xWS LTA in 2003, through our seperation in 2004 and subsequent divorce in 2005.

I have not been able to print or look at these photos on my hard drive for a long, long time. I figured it would keep them stored until I had healed enough to look at them again.

Now, seven years later, it's like seeing them for the first time.

I get that xWS is a broken person. Classic NPD a$$hole. xWS quickly remarried his OW in 2009 after several false R's post divorce.

I am just feeling so melencholy about our family and how everything we had was not 'good enough' for him. He had to 'invent' reasons to cheat on me, to blame me for his affair. He had to make up arguements so he could go into town to be with OW. He badmouthed me and demonized me to anyone who would listen. He brought out babies to OW's house to cover up his affair. When I confronted him he said I was crazy and denied everything.

The babies were beautiful, and I was so young and fresh looking too. I looked ten years younger than my actual age. Our former marital home was very nice and everything in the photographs looked so promising, and so new. We had everything we wanted by our 30's (mortgage and vehicles paid off, seven acres in the country) but it just wasn't good enough.

All for a piece of a$$ from a twice divorced, ugly, hateful, jealous OW. Now they have the house together and she's trying so hard to be me, dresses like me, wears her hair like me and has virtually taken over my life and playing step-mother to my kids as though it's always been that way. It's surreal.

[Sandra_18X]

Trust me all is not perfect in wonderland over there that's for sure. If he went that far to change his world you can be sure that it's wearing on her to up hold the new life that she has inherited. Since now she can't be herself instead she has to pretend to be someone else.

[EzekelEnzino]

Quote:

[VistaULTIMATEdownloadaPro]

Let her pretend to be you - she's NOT you. The fact that she has to emulate you shows you how shallow and insecure she is in herself. You can at least take solace in the fact that you are you, and she's a pretender.

[ArrichMer]

I'm sorry Jasmine...my ex did the same thing--and it is surreal sometimes.

The others are right... create another world. Don't try to imagine theirs as perfect. It is not.

put away the pictures---seven years is too soon---
sIS

[AlexanderDrew]

Oh I don't believe their life together is perfect, not by far. I lived there once upon a time, and I know it's a gilded cage they live in. I know my ex is a cheater and a dirtbag and what goes around comes around is true.

I just meant that I can't believe my cheater ex wasn't satisfied with our beautiful family and life. He had to go outside the marriage and destroy our happy family for a mean, vicious OW who was bent on placing herself (a virtual stranger) in our lives. It was a gift. We were sucessful. We had a nice home. No worries. A young family... and it was all turned upside down for nothing.

[ArrichMer]

I understand....he's an idiot just plain and simple. Threw away everything.

what a shame

[ArrichMer]

I understand....he's an idiot just plain and simple. Threw away everything.

what a shame

[aaaaaaaabbbby]

hi jasmine:

i understand where you are coming from. You created something special with your ex and it's difficult to imagine how he could turn his back on the family you and he built.

He lacked what you have in spades. Character and emotional depth. He is shallow; thus, couldn't see what he had. He couldn't see its beauty.

KitKat