[JorgiOLusinio]

Hey um im obviously new here, but even so let me start with a question that probably puts an end to an idea of dieting to anyone with my case. Please read the whole thing, its interesting and maybe you can share a very cool opinion as you get interested..

So ever since i was a kid i was always a very beautiful young kid, blue eyes that everyone likes even to this day, and i really looked like a prince..my cheekbones and face shape were amazing, i looked like i could grow up and be some kind of model, i looked like a white kid with blue eyes and nice face, i had nothing to be ashamed of, and i was fat, yet i still had a nice face...then i went and lost weight and i looked like a god..well this was all until 7th grade i went from being fit and skinny to gaining weight, not shaving and getting hairy, and puberty hit and my face really did change structure and look. From 7th to 9th grade my face really changed into what it is today, i went into a horrifying transformation where i was hairy fat and ugly, why u ask? because i never cared about looks even when i looked great, only now as i look at pictures do i realise what i lost..

well i changed i made a goal and i accomplished it, ive always found diets to be easy i always complete them without any aid from anyone, i got on a diet, shaved, and now i have a haircut that really is reminiscent of when i was in 6th grade per say, my goal was to match the pictures of the past, and what happened?

I am no semi skinny, but i have this green thing in my chin where even if i shave you can see a dark line, and my face structure somehow lost the nice cheekbones, my face structure turned horrible and even though im kinda skinny my face looks like an oval potato, destrctively ugly..i look at hot fat dudes and i ask my self, even after all this work and delusion i look like GARBAGE.

So here is my question, i could lose more weight and look like these guys..

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just plain skinny but is it really worth to lose all that weight just to keep looking like garbage? I mean im skinny under a certain extent but my face is garbage, it looks like it doesnt even have cheek bones, just looks like a big pile of nothingness, and i have no personality im a dead frog with no friends, i actually hate being around others..i just do this for my self, and i cant even do that..the only thing i could do is accept reality and forget about looks being so important, but i want to FIGHT for this and i fear nothing will happen...my face looks like garbage..when i talk my big lip sags down, when i smile big lines come out with no cheek bones, i look like sht...

Bare in mind the weight change would influence my legs and thighs and butt for the majority as they really do seem bigger than usual when i look at mirrors, i guess the thighs have always been where my fat has gone too...

Do i have hope? i feel like i can lose all the weight in the world..put a plastic bag over my face and next to a model and have the same body profile, but still look like garbage...i dont know what to do..it doesnt mean much to me not to have friends even at 19 years old, but it bothers me to not be able to look good, i look at a fcking garbage bag in the mirror..i dont want to fight against irreversable genetics..


Im destined to be alone..

Let me use this guy as an example..i went from looking like this..

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to this...

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and then back...but do you see how joaquin phoenix's face looks fat and round in the 2nd picture...it looks like that with me today...so i ask my self..i can be a pile of bones but ill never be the same...im lost.

Its just how genetics are, the guy i call dad has a fat face..the genetics killed me.