[apodildNoli]

Hmm, dont know where i am, spent time looking to find out what my crystals are, and what I need etc would help me.

Meidtation isnt going good, always do ok or well for a bit then back slowed down, so much has changed duno what it is.

I had a injury and have jaw movements wich get uncomfortable and hurt due to injuries, recently I believe maybe its the throat chakra, but over all its a headache.

I have 3 peopel helping me, doing healing, reiki etc, now I got no one, not even there for guidance, crazy, all ended badly! One just wanted to make money out of me, one I just cant trust and other well shes given up on me!

I wasnt bothered first though lets see how I can do with it the way things are now. But after every week it seems its getting harder for me. i dont feel like I get enough rest or sleep, duno if thats stopping me didnt before, if anything I use to meidtate better when tired, lol.

I cant raise energy like before and also seems the mantras I use have no or less value and are just words. I dont feel my chkras like before. As for the movemnets and discomforts its hard to do the breathing etc.

I duno I cant raise energy like before. cant do much liek before. I can only meditate properly on my eye when it suits it!

What I do? Well pagans grounding and white light protection videos. Try every night, I do chakra meidtation try eevry night on all chakras, if not mainly on root etc, I do root to top using bij sounds

Lam, vam, ram, yam, ham, aum, ang. And the mudras wich I think work. Btw wich mainly root one makes the movements worse! more uncomfortable at first. Then as I raise energy get energy flowing have to open eyes to rest movements, throat chakra etc.

But yeh then I do mantras to raise energy wich is kind alike doing the chakra one by one and raising the energy higher. And I cant do this like before. I cannt hardly feel my naval chakra now at all.

I use to not be able to feel chakra mainly only eye, root etc before, and yeh stupid throat! Then I was doing really well, just say bijs sounds few times and they vibrate.

I use to work out last year before injuries, sit ups, lifts( opposite of situps) and just minor weights. But I believe situps etc work the root and naval chakras? But since getting my nose broken I stopped, every tiem I started I felt I wasnt ready for it as I got bigegr weights as well. I still dont lift jheavy things an dfeel useless as I one got assualted many times lat year, 2 feel weak brittle as of it, 3 feel less confident meditating now.

So anotherwords, I cant do what i want, I dont even shout auummmmmmmm 10 times morning and night as it causes pain!

So I know how to go for it, but liek rite now I think sit ups for naval my naval use to be strong, but also I had a whiplash injury after a car crash and I still suffer from it. When i do naval and it contracts it hurts my neck, same as for my nos,e throat chakra etc.

So its liek God doesnt want me to do this, Liek every thing is agaisnt me doing this. I cant physically. I can handle ,mentally.

Goes agaisnt my MOTO, if your gona do it, do it properly!

What do I do?>??????????????