[PZXjoe]

not sure if this belongs in another thread or not...

im curious as to how everyone is dealing with the day to day hem and haw of a 3d life? since i've become more aware i've been exceptionally tired at my job and the daily tasks we all have to go through. it just feels so pointless to me. really? this is my life?

i've always felt my entire life i was supposed to be doing something bigger and more important. but can never seem to figure out what that thing is... but yet i feel so trapped now. we all need money to live and so we have to work. how does everyone cope? i find myself craving nature and the woods more and more and going from concrete building to concrete building just seems so wrong and futile.

i really try to carry joy and love with me...but you know its tiring. especially with the bombardment of negativity. it really is a test sometimes.

curious to know how others cope??

[HottBrorb]

hi noel 1111,
there are a few threads here about the tired feelings and also about the futile feeling we sometimes feel..(i just wrote about it myself in another thread)..do not think only of where you feel you may be going, but try to remember why you chose to be here..now.. in this time. the reasons you are here are important..to you..to me..and to all. at times we may feel the shifts, changes or whatever we are experiencing in us are all important, but we must not let go of the joys that are unique to this earthly life..look into the faces of those you meet and know. know them like you know yourself.. love them and through them love yourself.

in my case..i have to remind myself..that i am not trapped here, i am just at times confused between what i knew to be..and what is. (it sometimes is exhausting) this is hard to explain to others in my immediate life, so sometimes i feel alone..and then i remember i am far from alone as i am connected to everything..and the realization and excitement of that keeps me not only wanting to share..but to also understand all of those around me and the *wheres and whys* of them..

if i were you i would spend time in those places you love to be (in nature)...but also love where you must be ..(ie work..the grocery store..stuck in traffic..or concrete buildings)..instead of thinking of my work..as work..i try to develop relationships with those i work with..use mundane errands as an opportunity to be of sto..sometimes it doesn't work..lol..but i try to stay connected none the less.

i find that in this awakening i feel, that i have lost *big emotion (highs and lows) maybe because i am surprised by very little these days and expect certain things to happen..i also think that i sometimes confuse that lack of big emotion with depression when really i am just more even keeled..i even find that the love i have is like..hhmm..spread out..for example..i love my family but it has become a very..firm..i do not have *love worry* for example (love like a knot in th pit of your stomach)..like when you worry when your teenager is out too late..but i feel i am loving more deeply with more understanding..but it feels a little odd too..
..i dont know if that makes sense..and really would be curious if anyone else feels this way>>.

if i were to give any advice, it would be to would rest..and meditate..ask for help..and energy....it will come

[zlopikanikanz]

i've always felt my entire life i was supposed to be doing something bigger and more important. but can never seem to figure out what that thing is... but yet i feel so trapped now.

it is a very common emotion among us as we awaken, we want to help everyone and have a huge impact, just have the world be smart enough to work together instead of constantly fighting each other. but the important thing to remember is before we love anyone, we have to love ourselves. the biggest, most important thing for all of us to do, is believe in ourselves as one. one step at a time, we will all get to the end, enjoy the journey.

i really try to carry joy and love with me...but you know its tiring. especially with the bombardment of negativity. it really is a test sometimes. everything that happens in life is a catalyst for learning, and sometimes the test`s are difficult. just remember you can choose to have fun, even when no one around you is. they can try and push your emotions, but in the end it`s you that decides how to deal with any situation. just smile :d

[Poll Pitt]

the mind is rooted in the body, and so i try to do something active. this becomes extremely important when you working an office job that is mostly sedentary in nature.

i started going to the gym at my local community center to fight depression, and i found that not only did it help in this regard, but i found that it also helped with my mental stamina and concentration.

[PZXjoe]

thank you for your very kind words of encouragement. it is good for me to remember that these things must happen as part of my own spiritual growth. and yesterday was a very hard day mentally. lots of family/work drama. its funny now these big tests seem to be coming all at the same time one after another and then long portions where nothing happens. i think that is so i can get myself back to even.

i also feel that i've been tuning into more of other people's energies and think it may be a bit draining on me. that gets very difficult because i live in a large city and am always surrounded by people. even when i meditate i can hear neighbors or cars and sirens. i have taken this as another test that in the chaos i can still find peace. but it is a challenge. anyone else have that happening?

[MaickiP]

i may just be going through some temporary phase right now, but life with other-selves is definitely more difficult for me to cope with lately. in general i don't really talk unless necessary but i find that as my awareness grows i talk even less and crave more solitude. i don't even really like greetings most of the time (hey/what's up) because it seems so pointless, just like grunting or something. i'd much rather prefer just to nod my head, but even then it's like, ok, you're here i'm here no big deal, let's not get offended because i don't want to make eye contact. i somehow manage to get by at work in a small, crowded, noisy, and highly stressful office by a self-induced trance coupled with constant music to keep me in the zone. then i do yoga/meditation at lunch break (luckily there is woods by the office). anyway, i feel myself sort of drifting away further and further from everyone. i find myself being annoyed and even genuinely disturbed by people's attitudes and ignorance. basically i no longer have any desire to 'chit-chat' or socialize with meaningless activities such as television or video games, and i can feel people's (family and friends of course) confusion and even negativity towards me because they don't seem to understand my perspective at all and i wouldn't even want to try because then they'd probably just think i'm crazy. if they didn't, they still couldn't begin to grasp the state of mind since they've not even begun to search truth for themselves. anyway, this forum is definitely a help, but my next big goal is to become adept at leaving my body(astral projection) and fully lucid dreaming/remembering.

[freflellalafe]

not sure if this belongs in another thread or not...

im curious as to how everyone is dealing with the day to day hem and haw of a 3d life? since i've become more aware i've been exceptionally tired at my job and the daily tasks we all have to go through. it just feels so pointless to me. really? this is my life?

its important to remember that our 3d life has purpose, so having a job or dealing with paying bills, all the stuff that seems silly to us now that we are awake, they still have import. its important to not lose sight of that.

every little thing we do is a chance to learn. going to a bubble gum machine and getting out a bubble gum may seem silly but you know what, its not. because you wanted that bubble gum, and you wanted to feel happy from it. (bubble gum could be that, or it could be a new gadget at best buy or those new shoes youve been eyeing). the point is, you went for it because it made you happy. not someone else, but you, and so you fed your spirit light by that little action. it is one step closer to our 4d existence coming up.

i've always felt my entire life i was supposed to be doing something bigger and more important. but can never seem to figure out what that thing is... but yet i feel so trapped now. our purpose is often times hidden from us. audrey shenandoah says that sometimes we start performing a purpose without ever really knowing we are doing it. perhaps thats the way its meant to be, i think. but he also mentions that sometimes, our purpose [in regards to others] comes much later in life. and so basically everything we are doing now is preparing ourselves for this purpose. so if you are not performing your purpose yet, you are still in schooling.

we all need money to live and so we have to work. how does everyone cope? i find myself craving nature and the woods more and more and going from concrete building to concrete building just seems so wrong and futile. i understand this, i feel it too, especially as how i honor the creator through pagan beliefs that revolve very much around nature. but i have to keep reminding myself theres nature all around as well. the dirt we walk on, the air we breathe, the grass that grows, you can reconnect with nature merely with communicating with the grass that grows around your house. its something.

i really try to carry joy and love with me...but you know its tiring. especially with the bombardment of negativity. it really is a test sometimes.

curious to know how others cope?? i cope by recognizing it is a test. all of it, and i can choose to grow from the experience or not. theres no such thing as failure either. our actions show our growth but also how we feel about those actions. for example what if you are on the road and someone cuts you off and you get mad, maybe even to the point you speed up and cut them off in return. so we made a mistake then by allowing our anger to do this, but then... do we learn from the mistake we made? or do we feel vindicated in our actions?

so thats how i cope i look at everything as a learning experience, and recognizing it is, helps me alleviate the stress.

[duceswild]

hullo noel111,

i believe focus is a very powerful action, if you focus on where you should be instead of the present then how could you feel comfortable in the now? when you think about nature and a peaceful life in retreat that feeling, that state of mind, reminds you of who you truly are. how important you really are. that maybe you should be doing something greater than what you are already doing. but that is just an illusion.

you want to leave everything behind and focus on what is truly important. like the spiritual masters before us, go in retreat alone and spend time to sort things out. but we are spiritual warriors at the front line and that my friend i believe beats any spiritual master any day. we are the beacons of light for society at its darkest years.

acknowledge the negativity around you but always focus on the positive. because in the end where ever you will go the positive cannot live without the negative. some chose negative and that is fine, when they get tired of it they will start to experience its better half

forgive, bless and shine,
shine bright my friend.

[traithJah]

hey noel! i feel you. ny is kind of like living in a pressure cooker. it can be challenging sometimes. trying to stay centered here is like trying to build a house of cards in a hurricane. but, in a way, this place forces you to learn how to be centered. in order to stay peaceful and healthy here you really have to stay focused and kind of turn yourself into a ninja. i had to learn a lot of discipline and self restraint and i cut out some bad habits out of sheer necessity. i vibe off the people here. i have met some of the funniest, most unique, crazy, intense people in ny and i have lived in seven different cities all over the country.

so i have a question for you noel. if you could have any career you wanted in the world, what would it be? something that really made you excited to go to work the next day. or what makes you really bubbly and giddy to think about doing?

i would like to be paid to be a musician and a hypno-therapist one day. i don't particularly like the job i have now but what keeps me positive is that i am working towards this goal. if i thought i had to do this job i have now for the rest of my life i would be really bummed out.

[zlopikanikanz]

anyway, i feel myself sort of drifting away further and further from everyone. i find myself being annoyed and even genuinely disturbed by people's attitudes and ignorance.

remember we are all one, so the other-self you see is you experiencing life in a different form. although some people can be difficult to deal with, we still need to love their free will to do what they will. if we get upset over something the other-self does, it is us that needs to figure out why and remember that we always have the choice to feel fear or love.

we can only present the information to others to enlighten their ignorance, but if they choose to ignore the light, we need to respect their choice as well.

[juidizHusw]

i can understand where purple dragon is coming from; craving nature and the false feeling of concrete buildings. how i coped with it was to move.

i used to live in north america where things unworthy of worship were worshipped beyond all else (money, celebrity, possessions). i got tired of the negativity and fear, fear, fear that was constantly bombarding my senses 24 hours a day 365 days a year, well maybe not on christmas day when you could watch "log" on tv...

so, i decided to hell with it all, gave away about 90% of my stuff, sold the car and moved to the other side of the globe. now, i live in a small town in japan. i teach at the elementary schools. the town is surrounded by mountains and wildlife (boars, monkeys, snakes, frogs, cats, deer and even midget deer known as kiyon) and the pacific ocean. seeing the sunrise over the ocean while walking to work is awesome, there is some truth! the food is better too. fresh fish, veggies, tea...

even though i can speak japanese and read it and all that, i'm so out of tune with propaganda that most japanese people eat up daily, it has no effect on me directly. kids will always imitate what they see on tv. "where's the beef?", anyone? hell, i don't even know what a twitter is...and i'm happy about that.

no matter what happens on 12/21/12 - cataclysm, typhoon, earthquake, tidal wave, electro magnetic disruption - whatever - i know that i made the right choice to live the rest of the time between now and then here. i'm way happier than before. i took charge, and it's great.

my two yen.

[juidizHusw]

whoops! i should've written "i know where noel is coming from" - the original author of the thread in my post above. apologies abound! my mistake.

take care and peace.

[xADMlNx]

this question crossed my mind a bit back in time when my economy broke down to the same that happens in the usa today ! all incomes go to my bills,
so i realized that its not a fight i can win.
iam a single 3 boys family dad and dispite the moneyproblem we grow tighter
and have more fun then ewer !!!
i listened to james gillilands approach to consiusmindnetwork interview and realize there is help from allover the uniwerse coming now to help us during
the transformation, some 2 million years old beeings he said was here ! and i now its tru that i newer disbelived him just got enormus humble for life,
not 1 kind, but all kind of life. speak right out in space and feel there love
when the calm u get projected from them reach ur innerself u now its nothing to worry about. welcome the chaos as a friend and remember that out of chaos comes order ! only deep love can change present bad times.
and remember love dont hurt. iam loving as much as possible, just ewerything, and allways from nowon, see u later when ur no gator. lol

[MattJargin]

6 years ago, i was fortunate enough to have my "reality" be completely shaken up. i was left with maybe 2 thousand dollars to my name..and that was a gift. that was when i can truly say i "woke up", and started on a my journey.

i took off to a different city, and started picking up pieces to reinvent myself. when i realized that i had enough in that location, i picked up my things and moved again. i moved away from family and friends that kept on putting me back into the old "box" of who i was to them. i am blessed to have a few close friends that accept me no matter how many times i reinvent myself.

once i let go of the idea of me having to have a house, a car, and all the other things one must have, life became an adventure. i don't worry about a retirement plan anymore. i've realized that if something you work on for years to save up can be gone in an instant, then things can work the other way around too. i have put to the test the saying "create your own reality".. and it's been quite an adventure!! now, 3d life for most days, is a testing lab for me. i believe my purpose in life for now is to experience many things, and travel to many places and look at humanity from many angles. and this is what i focus on.

of course, i have to pay my bills too... but that's the awesome part. i love that scene in the old indiana jones movie where he makes that leap of faith, and stands on a bridge that he did not see before. when creating my own reality, it's worked for me only when i put my foot forward to that nothingness. things really do come to you !

noel, i've been where you are in my early stages since i "woke up" to truth of this reality. i believe once you find your own place "in" you, the answers will come to you quite quickly. =)

hang in there !

[c6vkuNRg]

i have noticed since economys collapse & living in the uk, the sensetivity am getting is that it has been planned all along, i say this as we all have done the 9-5 rotuine, & just wondered what the heck we are doing, earning money so we can pay bills but to let governements take it off us, but they dont do our job they dont suffer our stress, so many people are now awake to this & the thoughts & feelings are manifesting globally, by chance i dont think so, my point is many years ago while serving in the forces i would just try talk to any one to be friendly & just talk share experiences knowledge etc, some people thought i was a wierdo, one guy actually punched me, we have been living too distant from one another afraid to connect to our own humanity, this has been achieved by media, polatics etc.

so i have noticed that since signing on as we call it, it has brought us closer together, as were feeling the same problems & surprise surprise were all thinking the same things, having good conversations its like the average joe on the street is no longer a stranger any more, we are actually opening up & coming together, like a master plan of unity, so the negative yes i lost my house my car my job, but now i feel so free, ok i have a roof over my head which is private rented & its no mantion, but it does the job & the government pays for it, so they should i have been working since i was 16 years old, how much tax is that i paid for 14 years. then it dawned on me if i feel so free & suffer no stress & am a lot happier in life, why go back to the old way.

conclusion today was nice & sunny in leicester, so me & the mrs went for a walk to sort some things out, i saw so many people during a working week sunbathing in the park, out on bikes, just enjoying living these are the most people who have lost everything but gained life again, while others are stuck in a office dealing with stress worrys about bills etc etc.

the old ways are coming to an end i feel, we are facing a break down of the system & during this period dont be afraid let it happen, as like i find i have a life again, i am just so amazed that i am communicating with more peole now than i ever was, its all coming together at last, freedome to focus on what really matters in life & thats me you everyone, bringing the connection back together.:d

[johnteriz]

"even though i can speak japanese and read it and all that, i'm so out of tune with propaganda that most japanese people eat up daily, it has no effect on me directly. kids will always imitate what they see on tv. "where's the beef?", anyone? hell, i don't even know what a twitter is...and i'm happy about that."



love that thank you i dont know what a twitter is either tho i have heard of it, and i get so confussed.

i want to get away from the center of society like i do live. i dont want to have to grocery shop everyweek anymore either...yay that summer is commin and i can at least grow my own fruit and veggie source.

staying in tune with my needs is a big one. i was just really really stressed out before this weekend. i am barely pregnant (three mos,) and i work a stressful job that requires me lift and be on my feet all day long. i thought that i was hitting a very unhealthy stage when i left to go camping on friday and thought i wouldn't be able to enjoy my camping trip at all, let alone hike. but when i entered my home (as i call it, i go there every year and every year its more and more my home) my stress and aching went away. i spent the first afternoon relaxing and becomming one with the home i'd been away from for so long.

then i thought of the stories of the ancients, walking the earth each and every day in search for food and shelter....even as they were carrying all the baby weight that they would get for the term they would walk the earth and collect their food and move with the weather and what not.

i understood then, that it's not being up on your feet, working hard, and doing what needs be done...it's that often our lives are so full of stesses that we forget (or at least dont always find the time) the small things that are so important to our vitality. i know the difference now, and i think i will try to make nature outtings a weekly event. it's only tuesday and im' back to feeling rushed, i'm back to feeling stressed, and im' back to feeling like taking care of myself is a thing that must be put on the back burner.

i dont feel that this is the way that we are supposed to live, but in many of our humanly cases this is the way it's become.....so you must find ways to balance. set limits with what you are willing to do, and how "stressed" you are willing to become, before you put yourself first, espeically if you live in and work in the middle of a metro society. you must understand the need and the why it's so important to say no. if you dont, then you will be run down, at least that is how i feel

i'm very glad that i dont have a job where if i"m not here people will die...but being a ups store owner most of my customers depend on my timeliness and rely on my being here in order to make their lives easier...but i have learned that if im' not here....then you will have really no choice but to move on and open up to someone elses help.

i think it's sad that we have to hunt so much and work so hard for moments that we are just supposed to have among us all the time....but finding balance has become a mainstay in my day to day.

i also have grown an understand to everyone else needing the breaks and the get aways. it is very hard to leave society, it is very hard to sell everything we own and go somewhere that will create the change that so mnay of us long for, i know this because i want to, but it's scary, and i'm pretty young, i haven't got to where i feel like i'm "at that time" but it's also all just excuses to not have to do something new and scary. so i have definately grown my understanding to short tempers at times, sometimes we really just cant hang on anymore.

anyway, i'm rambling, you all get the jist

[PZXjoe]

first of all congrats blacksunshine on your baby news! how wonderful!

thanks everyone, it really does help for me to read others experiences. i too am in a huge metro city and feel stuck here at the moment. my husband lost his job just before christmas and has not been able to find work since. so i have been the bread winner. i would love nothing more to move out to the country and built my mini-utopia in the woods but all of that is very unrealistic right now.
however, we have decided that every sat we'll get out of town and do something out in nature. this past sat we went for a nice picnic lunch and a hike up in the mountains. it had been so long since we have done that and it was wonderfully refreshing. we did not pass a single human being or animal while out on our hike. we were completely alone and it was just what i needed to recharge my batteries. as we were walking i told my husband that it really is amazing that we live in such a crowded world yet there are still places on earth for us each to find solitude. the weather is going to be perfect this sat. and i can't wait to get back to the woods.

is it a bad thing to want to have money to buy a place of your own? or is that considered sos?

[MattJargin]

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is it a bad thing to want to have money to buy a place of your own? or is that considered sos?

i personally think that financial freedom = freedom in 3d world. so it is not a bad thing. actually, it should be encouraged. having material abundance is not a bad thing. it is how you go about it to get it, and how you deal with it that matters.

once you have your freedom, you are free to fully pursue things that really matter to you.

[freflellalafe]

this question crossed my mind a bit back in time when my economy broke down to the same that happens in the usa today ! all incomes go to my bills,
so i realized that its not a fight i can win.
iam a single 3 boys family dad and dispite the moneyproblem we grow tighter
and have more fun then ewer !!!
i listened to james gillilands approach to consiusmindnetwork interview and realize there is help from allover the uniwerse coming now to help us during
the transformation, some 2 million years old beeings he said was here ! and i now its tru that i newer disbelived him just got enormus humble for life,
not 1 kind, but all kind of life. speak right out in space and feel there love
when the calm u get projected from them reach ur innerself u now its nothing to worry about. welcome the chaos as a friend and remember that out of chaos comes order ! only deep love can change present bad times.
and remember love dont hurt. iam loving as much as possible, just ewerything, and allways from nowon, see u later when ur no gator. lol

oh i so agree! so much!

they are here - our help is here already. its not just logic, you can feel it. we can connect at any time with them since we are all one, and when reading what you wrote i found myself doing just that, and im right now feeling love so strong that its affecting my body physically... its like a light that just expands from the middle of your body outwards, up towards your chest, and down your torso to extend to the tips of your limbs... and the feeling of love, being loved is so great and beautiful, you want to cry, because you have no way to contain it.

i do want to add though that most people cannot just pack up and move, they should know that change can be found anywhere, including where they live. sometimes its harder to see, when entrapped in a surrounding of negative ideologies, but just walk your own path and dont let it affect you. you can find yourself in any circumstance.

i have noticed since economys collapse & living in the uk, the sensetivity am getting is that it has been planned all along, i say this as we all have done the 9-5 rotuine, & just wondered what the heck we are doing

its because its our wake up call. david mentions that everytime a life form became stagnant in its growth, evolution kicked in to bring in a higher consciousness.

is it a bad thing to want to have money to buy a place of your own? or is that considered sos?

service to self is not always a bad thing. it depends on the reasons you want to. you want to have a place you can feel safe in, where you can feel happy, and be at peace. you want to find somewhere where you can be who you are and by doing so, grow. this is service to self but its so positive because when we heal ourselves we become closer to healing consciousness in whole.

i too want to live in a woodsy area.

[inilbowly]

attachment can be shown in many forms. this week, the form showed up in the form of my satellite service. my service went down for a unknown reasons. my attempt to call for repair lead to a long exercise of patience and tolerance of the people trying to help. i must say, my emotions were high and not necessarily positive. my thoughts were going wild and i didn't like what i was seeing of myself in this earth moment of a device that was created for entertainment. it became a negative attachment because it was not working when i wanted it to work.

i noticed my attachment to the satellite system (material)
i was attached to the outcome (my will)
i was attached to the service level (judgement)

after my 1st one hour of phone repair, i left the call with no satification and only angry at what i began to see in myself. the next day, when the service failed to repair itself i.e., wait 30 min and re-boot, i called the service again for action. this time, however, i detached myself from the outcome. i let go of the outcome, and thus, i saw myself more pleasant, more interactive and focus with the persons helping and was able to maintained a balanced connection with the parties involved. i did still have to exercise patience with this desire to get it fix

although the repair was not repairable by phone, the next day, a live tech person was able to resolve the problem. the " experience " showed me that a system or material attachment can take hold of me and turn my better judgement and intention into something that i am not.

what a lesson of becoming false in a short moment just because i wanted my late night jokes.

do others have similar experiences with these day to day items that have become part of us willing or unwilling ?