[Wluwsdtn]

I've got to go to the main campus of my college Wednesday for a special seminar and I'm very nervous about if that guy Jeff who treated like shi_ last year. You know the guy who rejected me twice but pretended to like me and than verbally assaulted me when I gossiped about the bad things he was doing. Anyway I really hope I don't see him and my mom will be driving me up and possibly joining and ohmigod, I just can't tell my mom she's very clueless when it comes to issues like this and for some reason likes to blame me for things that people have done me but I've done nothing to them. I almost don't want to go to the seminar but I feel the need to. It's a part of a program I joined due to academic and financial need and I get perks like a possible trip during spring break (if I attend at two of these seminars a semester), etc. But I wish I didn't have to go at all. In fact I probably shouldn't had joined the program until I moved back because the transportation issues I have and I have to plan to go to these. Am I too paranoid?

[chzvacmyye]

Whenever I've had to go into a potential *storm* I always do grounding before, during and after. Then just go with it, listen to how the energy of the experience is flowing and flow as much as you can. Good luck.

[Tribas4u]

Thanks but right now I'm frustrated with my sister. Basically my dad called asking us to fix something for him that none of us really had the expertise to do so I let my dad know I haven't worked on a VCR in a while I wouldn't know how to program it but this was after he had asked me to ask my sister who was just being lazy in bed and she screamed back saying I was lazy so there was a lot of fighting and hopefully one of these days one of the fights will get to be too much and they will at least sign up for public housing that my sister and her husband (who scares me at times with his temper) qualify for. At this point I'd rather live with parasites in my digestive system then my own sister I even called my other sister for back up but she was too busy. Unfortunately I think she (who doesn't live with us) will have to use her mighty guts that she has to tell my other sister to move out. My mom doesn't have the heart too and everyone is going crazy, not just me

[Wluwsdtn]

I don't know, I just know my sister accuses me of hanging on the past but she herself is angered with me from issues from the past, even as far back as my childhood. Yes, funny and quite sad, she doesn't seem to believe I'm a grown up, I don't need to be talked down too, I can make my own decision, possibly better than she could her own, and she just won't respect that. Even when she wasn't living in my house we would fight often either through email, IM, or phone. So it feels like it's never ending.

P.S. My little seminar got cancelled due to a huge faculty meeting so I didn't stay at my college long today to have any drama, :lol:

[Wluwsdtn]

PrincessKLS,

I just figured out myself the only thing I can change is me or what I am doing. Other people are under their own influence.

Some people learn to swim up stream, some down stream, but some wait to decide which way before they proceed with their journey.

I had to stop everything, and reevaluate and decide if I was going to be drug into arguments or use the situation that was a major stumbling block and change it to a stepping stone to the next challenge.

This is a transition that takes time, a few people are just now noticing a change in me.

XOXO

Well I feel like I'm transitioning on and off since about 2005/2006. Sometimes I feel I take steps back but other times I think I'm making progress.