[nintenda]

I'm not sure whether this should be posted here or in spirituality so forgive me. A few months ago I had a spontaneous projection (freebies are nice), decently charged so I remembered it well and only moderately conscious (in charge of myself) at the time however.
Anyway, It began at my mothers house soon after I left my body, still like an explanation for that, as its happening a lot lately. I was wondering around my old room fooling around when I decided to leave out the window. I jumped down to the yard where it was pitch black, I decided to kneel and say a prayer in thanks for everything in my life ect... This was a first for me in the real time zone. When I opened my eyes I was standing next to 6 or 8 (2 vertical rows) of light bulbs brightly illuminating the area. A European type town: with cobble stone streets, old buildings and people strolling about in formal clothing , brightly colors triangular flags hanging on lines with strange symbols embossed on them suspended in rows from walls to street.
After taking this in I turned to my left and saw....my father in law???
Well that was the problem. Because I cant stand my father in law he is overbearing, arrogant, inconsiderate and cares about nothing but his money. His features were over exaggerated to he was much fatter than he is, taller and somehow goofier looking than he is in real life. So what did I do.... I turned my head and thought quite loudly "nasty m@#$er F!@@# er" I immediately regretted it but , it was, of-course too late. His grin dropped to a disappointed frown instantly, he turned and began walking away. Feeling like crap I ran over to him and quickly apologised. But from his penetrating glare of disappointment and dismissal I knew it meant very little. He again turned and disappeared from sight. I blew it off (you know how ap'ing can be), until I got back to my body and realized just who that fat man in green may really have been.
There was absolutely nothing negative about this individual and his grin was more like a smile of love and understanding than one of sarcasm, to which I am use to. Of course I reacted negatively without thinking and 2 minutes after I offered a prayer of thanks to god, what a sweetheart I was huh? To call my behavior regretful is an understatement. I am not sure who it was, higher self...?? Who knows... but be careful what you think and to whom you are thinking it about when ap'ing. My intuition tells me it was someone of considerable spiritual significance... and I told him to kiss off. What a fool. Well the jokes on me, I pay in the end. Lesson learned. I guess the moral of this story is; Don't think negative even about the people you don't like because you become conditioned to the behavior and as such the negativity becomes part of you.... and you will be tested on it while vulnerable in obe land.

Than again I could have it all wrong.... Your thoughts???

[nerohedfrs]

My thoughts on this would be that you saw his projected double, his higher self or just how he would like to be (you'd be surprised how many selfish and egotistic people are actually trapped by what they consider life circumstances) so you saw him as he really is- but reacted out of habit. One thought that came to mind as I read your post is that he is one of your greatest teachers- he is teaching you about selflessness and forgiveness-just the hard way.

[nintenda]

Thanks a bunch for your input Cftraveler, I'm not sure I agree with it but thanks for responding. Theres so much I dont get anyway so...

[OWDavid]

I agree - for some reason, my visuals tend to get off in astral realms or lucid dreams. I am learning to never assume that someone is who I think they are.

The important thing may be the lesson you learned - if you learned it well, please don't beat yourself up over it! You know better now.

[mr.nemo]

hmmm... in one of Terry Pratchetts books there was a story about how Death was dismissed from it's duties and thus the world was overcrowded with "life force" that didn't pass over to the "other side" and it was leaking into reality by every option possible. lets say, when a person cursed or possibly thought of something very bad, there materialised a creature that represented the idea of the swearword or the bad thought. Pratchett's ideas sometimes are really bright and somehow this one could make a lot of sense. Like your thoughts, worries, urges and whatnot materialising in this OBE realm/twilight zone/whatever-you-call-it.

though I'm really not sure if that can actually happen. I see that Dsmoke already said about his visuals spinning off in the astral. maybe someone else has something to say on the topic?

[OWDavid]

hee hee, Inx ... dsmoke is a "she" Everyone seems to make that mistake!

[mr.nemo]

oh sorry it's just that to me the idea of smoke somehow associated with a masculine being... don't even know why

oh by the way - I just had a thought. can one unintentionally create an entity in the astral this way?

[nintenda]

Wow Inx what a cool notion, in the book i mean. But I turned and saw him first then made the expletive. So he couldn't have been made by the thought, I think he would have looked much worse judging by what i said.
Yeah it was a slap in the face for me though the disappointed unworthy look he gave. But yeah cant beat my self up forever.

Yeah you can create some pretty ugly stuff Inx. One of the first things I tried to do when I began consciously obeing. I concentrated on general darkness, foreboding, negative feelings nothing specific but with intensity once while I was out and in half a second I was attacked by 2 large dogs out of the fog. Terrified I fell back for a minute then realized they were thought forms, hoping really, then, I made them disappear. Ok maybe it was alittle intentional... well I wanted to see what would happen so I guess I was looking for trouble, but didnt know if it would happen or not.