[TorryJens]

Sri Gurubhyo namaha.

Experiences with Guru's (a personal one) nnu solla adiyEnidam avalavaa ethuvum illai. The books that caused a personal transformation in me were the " Conversations with God" series of books by Neale Donald Walsch. I cried and laughed and danced and sang with joy and peace and a sense of unlimited freedom and love with the series of books by the same author. I guess one gets the picture from the previous sentence .

As I gobbled down the books, I had a mad and compelling desire to get them to as many people as I thought would make use of them, but almost none have. Beyond a point I painfully understood that people have their own ways and paths of coming to the Light and nothing could be forced. As such my 'desire' for spreading the word around ended ( although I still completely enjoy having spiritual discussions).

Right now I am merely in a process of observation, observing the mind, the body, its actions and reactions, etc. After all, it seems, everyone has darkness and Light within and showing either is a choice that is made every moment. The fight between the dualities within myself looks like a painful and tiresome struggle especially when there is much attachment to the world and the mistaken notions of the self.

I must say that is where it stands now. I have been shown books, people, movies, poems, music, all of the Light, all embraced by an infinite sea of Love that makes me humbler than the humblest of beings, and yet exalted as a part of the All. Again there is this contradiction, yet this is a beautiful and a harmonious one. To me, all these and also what lies ahead in the path that has been set for me, definitely seem nothing else but Guru-Krupa.

Much Love and Light,
Prasad.