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Morning y'all:
I think most folks think of death, or are afraid of death, b/c of they fear the extinction of Self. It's something you feel in the gut, instinctual.
As a Buddhist, I practice, I study Buddhist thought, but I until faced this, anatta is just a word.
I had a cancer scare last year, so, during my practice, I explored the dissolution of my self. The best way I can describe my mind's initial reaction to this thought was that of small child; crying out, genuinely grieving for some lost, precious thing. Over time, that reaction is dissipating. The paradigm of anatta is gradually replacing the Judeo-Christian concept I carried before.
Now, in thinking of death and fear, I find the contemplation of something tragically befalling my son is the only thing that causes me any great angst.
Yes, I'm attached to him, but I don't feel terribly bad about it.
Y'all have a good day,
Bill