[Kayakeenemeds]

Thank you both. It's awkward to try and do what you say, Jobeson, because I haven't tried talking to him after all that's happened. I don't hate God anymore, I feel that the reason I still want to cry after coming from a sermon or listening to preachers on T.V. is something much deep then the hell of life. I think I'll go back to church Sunday and have a talk with my pastor. I'm sure my relationship with God will start to repair itself.