crazie just an obervation you state that you have a lot of weight to lose but you don't binge and eat organic. So how did you get to be large? Accepting oneself is the start to a road to recovering from your eating disorder that has put you where you are now, needing to lose alot of weight. In order to maintain a weight loss you DO need to change your eating habits and it might include restriction or the types of carbohydrates you eat(breads, pasta, potatoes and desserts). Take time to look at yourself and see what road you really want to take.