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Well apparently I have made everyone angry at me.

Tanji, I think that you have made the right decisions, and you shouldn't be discouraged by the fact that you weighed yourself and are even heavier than you thought. In fact, I think that's a good thing in a way. It's a wake up call in a way, a notice to yourself that you made the right decision in deciding that NOW is the time to start losing weight.

I'm a firm believer that there are points in people's life when they see the light, or come to a realization and if they make a firm decision, can make permanent positive changes in their life. I think that you are at one now, Tanji. If you stick with it you WILL lose the weight, its absolutely a sure thing.

If you cant exercise, try to take a significant look at the other aspects that you can control. Check your food by calorie as well as carbs, and get a really good indicator of where you are at. Take an inventory of what you do during the day, and set yourself not only some goals, but identify your motivation.

For some people its positive energy, but whatever it is, I believe there must be a motivating factor, a powerful one to drive you. I've been where you are, had bad legs, weighed so much that going up stairs made me tired, and then I just made the decision. Once I identified my motivation AND was able to prioritize it above giving up or eating, I was able to stick to the plan and keep striving for success.

Certainly during that year there were periods where I thought about giving up, but the goal and the motivation kept me going. What you need to avoid is the later complex. Right now there is no later. I did that for years, I told myself either "later" or "too late". When I thought I was 220 and I got on teh scale and I was 250, I said, too late, and I ate myself up to 275. The next time when I found out I was 275 and I thought I had stayed at 250, I gave up even more. When I hit 315 or so I finally realized that there were only TWO THINGS that could happen. I could either keep getting bigger until I died, or I could start getting smaller.

Once you remove "too late" and "later" from your vocabulary, the only thing left is "now" and that's where I think you are, Tanji. Just take a good hard look at your menu, push yourself where you can, and give it a bit of time and you will be successful. The more you lose, the easier it will be for you to lose more as well. Once you get back to a healthier weight you can start making more lifestyle adjustments to assist you with even further weight loss.

I know some people think I over advocate the exercise but.... thats just who I am. It saved my life, and I'm a firm believer that most of what we consider physical limits are just mental limits.

In any case, you got this Tanji, just don't quit. Quitting never screwed anyone over but yourself, right now you need to grasp the motivation you found to start this and ride it till the end.