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I've wanted a Beauceron for years now. Spoken with the same breeder for years, (he's got to wonder if I'm just a tire kicker! lol) and I just can't take the plunge.

When I had Roxy, my excuse was I didn't want 3 dogs, too much. And I wanted to experience as many different activities first, so that I knew for sure what I was going to do with another dog. Roxy was the best guinea pig anyone could ask for. We did everything together, usually with much success (minus herding, that was a disaster! lol). Now that Roxy's gone, I'm convinced that I'll be disappointed with whatever dog I end up with because it will never be as wonderful, smart and intune with me as Roxy was.

It's been an internal battle for me, but losing Roxy has really killed that picking at my brain for the time being. Just the thought of getting another dog makes me feel physically woozy, my stomach turns and I just feel icky.