Well since I started suffering from waswasah I decided to focus more on studying our deen, I've been reading a lot, and yes it helped me not to lose hope and faith, I started to run, but now is hot outside I can't run all covered! so now I spend my time reading and sleeping, praying and crying. I suffered insomnia but now, I think it's becuz of the drugs, I can't stop sleeping and I feel so weak, even physically! I used to study at university, I loved it but now I can't focus on my studing, but anyway I am trying to study a little bit just becuz I don't want to disappoint my parents and I lied to them, I told them now I feel better just bcuz I don't want to see them sad, but it's not true, I feel bad! thank you for your support. Jazak Allahu Khair, barakallahu fik.