I didnt read all your comments but for now im not going to suicide, but in a second thought maybe im not meant to be a muslim. Im not encouraging anyone to leave islam but my life so far didnt encourage me to get in touch more about my religion, i cant handle it to be a muslim and live my life at the same time, one of the pressure im going through is being a muslim, i still didnt leave islam nor i ignore it, but living in depression each day and saying im a muslim wont work with me anymore. Brother and sisters thank you for all of your comments, i will be back when i get back and try to tell you what happened with me after like 1 or 2 years. Good bye.