Yeah... Kendo is really competetive and I've never been one for that. That's probably another aspect I dislike about it. Sometimes it makes me wonder if Kendo just isn't for me since I get judged so much, and I'm going to get judged even more. I feel like such a quitter when I say that though... hopefully I can "grow a thicker skin" as you say, because if not, I'm not gonna have much fun.