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I guess you're right. I think I just need to sit down and think some more

Yeah. Get some time to really reflect what it is you want out of studying kendo. I think you might be somewhat in a searching process for a goal that you want to achieve. It's really hard...but when you're beginning, it's important not to let things get to you. Just last practice while I was pathetically trying to keep up with one of my sempai, he would continually barrage me with hits and then as I was about to just give up he would yell "Kamae!" at me...sure...it got me a little riled up, but it also helps to motivate me. It's really important to let your sempai help you develop. If they're SERIOUSLY just making fun of you for making a mistake, then you might be right...it could be the environment. But they are there for a reason...they're not just advanced students, they should be your mentors help you progress.