[flowersnewaho]

Face your fear. I once (and only once in my life) fell from a horse (literally) and even though I love riding I was kinda scared to do it for years. Eventually I managed to overcome it. Now I love it again, wish I had horses to ride more often...

So stick around, talk about it with sensei, see if you can just take your time to adapt doing suburi, kata, uchikomi-geiko sans-bogu and keeping up with practice the best you can. Hopefully you can work on your posture to avoid that happening again.

Selling your stuff is a bad idea now.