you gotta know that your not alone in this boat, **** happen to everyone, ok you got a very unlucky year but can it be worst? yes think out of the box, go do something you never ever did or never tough you could do, just for the thrill of it(if you dont want to. push yourself to do it. 10-20 sec of freefall off a plane is very nice. well it dit put me back on track anyway hehe) and please dont let yourself down,cheer up and ffs GET SOME MEDICAL HELP!!! they are there to help you pull it trough and dont be shy about it