I've been on a range of antidepressants over the past few years, the last one was 250mg of Clomipramine, i've been off them for about 14months now, but still on Olanzapine for my bipolar and mood, I still get good and bad days in fact the last few days have been crap. Just a word of warning though the Clomipramine I was on started seizures Myoclonic and Grand Mal, i'm on Keppra for my epilepsy unfortunatly there are side effects like depression and anxiety which hold me back, it seem to be a never-ending cycle for me, they may help you. One thing that i'm having and helps alot is CBT, the thing is you really have to be commited in doing this though. All the tablets i've been on have caused me nothing but grief from diarrhea, constipation, seizures, anxiety, severe indigestion etc. My psychiatrist has been great in the support, he's not a pill-pusher unlike my other psyc dr, all i'm on is a few tablets now. When I was taken off my antidepressant, the flood of emotions were overwhelming to say the least, I noticed that I was like a zombie when I was on them totally void of any emotion. If you can get through this rough time without tablets that would be great, it's just a question of seeing the right person for the healing to begin.