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g'day BigEckk

the life stage you are going through is certainly one where many school friends go their own way as they define their adult path. this is where the diversity of individual beings begins to reveal itself. in my experience, we lose touch with most of our school group & remain life long friends with only a few

as for your exams, these are important, but you could only do your best. i cannot offer too much advice because university was certainly a challenge for me and i only just scraped through. for me, there were many distractions &, generally, a lack of true enthusiasm. but things were easier back then, including free university. therefore my parents were not required to finance my 'studies'

my only advice is to reflect on the necessity of education & try to improve your causes & conditions by freeing the mind of any hindering distractions

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also, you sound quite loyal and i recall your post about your former girlfriend. all i can say here is when our heart feels friendship, this is a testament to our capacity for friendship & loyalty. but i cannot agree that you lost a lover and may have also lost a friend.

we can never lose true friends. emotions of romantic &/or sexual love can come & go, but true friendship is never lost nor does it vacillate. i would suggest to let go of the idea that you lost a true friend. true friends do not abandon us, even when their romantic interest may cease

i was young once & once had two 'lovers'. although that kind of 'love' ceased with both, my innate friendship with one of them has never ceased

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buddha taught karma is intention. although, in our learning of life, our plans often do not come to fruition, it is the quality of our intentions that nurture us & carry us through

to me, your posts seem to focus on a concern for friendship. that being the case, such aspirations can only bring you good karma in the long term because it reflects a quality of genuineness about yourself

buddha taught friendliness (metta), karuna (compassion), appreciation (mudita) & upeka (equinimity) are the best of human emotions

kind regards

element