Sorry to hear that but you never know in the far future will you ever have thoughts of suicide. i only had minor suicide thoughts however i was drunk so that doesn't count If your whole life was ruined and most of your family pasted on, you would most likely be attempting to take your own life. its sad to hear 12 year olds and even 8 year olds hanging themselves over dramatized words and embarassing moments which led most down the path of suicide. RIP