We kissed, hugged, and promised marriage after growing up. That was love indeed, but we did not have the any idea to consummate our strange longing for each other. That was quite a strange feelings, as if looking at a bottle of water in the desert without strength to open it. I do not know, but the affair had caused a great trauma in both of us, I am never a normal boy since, so is she. I have always been a kind of asperger boy, you can sense from my posts.