[Michael-jeckson2]

Hi,

When I started focusing on my own spiritual growth quite a few years ago, I obtained a love of all people & things without prejudice; this seemed to be a good thing.
Over the past year or two I have realised my love no longer exists, I still have compassion, I would never intentionally cause and I will subdue suffering at every opportunity but I actually do not feel capable of love.

As an example, in the UK we often have charity adverts on TV showing children from Africa starving with malnutrition. I look at the child and consider it a representation of all suffering in the world. I pause and ask myself what I think, what I feel about this obvious tragedy and the answer worries me, I think and feel nothing at that moment.
I see everything in the world as a necessity, every experience however strong or mundane as a stepping stone forward, I see the child’s suffering as an inevitable evil.

I am worried that my thoughts are not humane and this will stunt my development, I look at the concept of detachment in Buddhism and I wonder, am I ok or have I gone too far.
So I would like to ask if anyone has any views on my apathy, can I still have this and be on a progressive path or have I lost my way?

Regards Ticktock