Firstly, I'm sorry that you are dealing with so many issues. I hope you can get this under control.

Secondly, I assume you have a psychiatrist. I would make sure you have consistent follow-up with someone who knows what they are doing. Unfortunately I am not familiar with any major medical centers in south carolina to recommend anyone specific (the closest center I know of is UNC, and that may be way too far for you). In any case, a good psychiatrist will work closely with a social worker, who should be able to help you sort out your concerns regarding the practical aspects of obtaining care. Furthermore, it sounds like you could benefit from occupational therapy and counseling, which the social worker and psychiatrists should be able to set you up with. Don't worry about insurance right now. If needed, you can get Medicaid to cover your mental health bills. The important thing is to get good follow-up, and make a plan of how you are going to integrate yourself into the society to the best of your ability. Desiring to get committed is not productive, and I don't think anyone is happy at a state psychiatric facility.

Not to mention, you can't just sign yourself into one. It's really not an ideal situation for anyone that doesn't need it. You are right, he should get nearly everything covered with Medicaid. I still think he could benefit from an acute setting.

I want to be institutionalized No, you don't.

I have to say, learned helplessness is a bigger problem than most of the recognized illnesses.

and you are completely right.

Mmm at the end of the day EVERYONE is going to feel better on a combination of opiates and benzos.... Hell I would probably take that combo if I had access to it but the addiction and withdrawal from opiates and benzos is foul and can literally be life threatening... Actually I wouldnt take it because of the withdrawal but it certainly would make you feel better...

I'm perfectly fine with my Oxy and Alprazolam (Aside from the occasional constipation, I take Magnesium, which I am also prescribed to take for my endocrine system regulation, to counter-act it). Takes care of my severe head pain (Most days) and the Alp. for Anxiety/Sleep.


But I'm not going into my medical history now, most of you know it anyways...

*Although lately I feel my Warfarin has been messing with my body a lot (Irregular INR/PT)... argh... and I have to be on this **** for life. :(

Of course you are fine on your oxy and alprazolam lol.... Its when you stop it that you will be FAR from fine!

Gibbering anxiety ridden wreck with pain all over your body, constant aching and bad depression, horrible shivvers, stomach cramps, diarreah, Flu symptoms etc...

Why stop if you have issues that warrant use of those substances? Proper use can be done until you die. How is it better to be pain and have panic attacks without those drugs? Even the newest anti-depresssants have withdrawal effects that pharmaceutical companies call "discontinuation syndromes" which can be far worse than opioid or benzodiazepine withdrawals.

BTW, opioid withdrawals are far easier to get over than benzodiazepine withdrawals. There is also a difference between being an addict and being physically dependent.

Good post. This 100% Brat.

Well said Doc. http://www.discussworldissues.com/fo...lies/wink1.gif

I finally saw a real psychiatrist (first time ever), who simply added Nuvigil to my list of medications and it really made a positive difference. I was tired of feeling tired before and wanted to just let go/give up and have someone take care of me (desire to "be institutionalized"...). I now can stay awake and my fatigue is greatly reduced to a point where I began being interested in outside activities, physical activities, sex with women instead of masturbation, etc... I was tired too much for any of those activities, but not anymore! At first I thought Nuvigil made me hypomanic again, but it leveled off to where I am stable but alert. I have nothing to complain about anymore. It sucks that I can't get excited/fascinated, because, in my case, it triggers hypomania and then I get severe depression later. Now I am just stable, like this - http://www.discussworldissues.com/fo...ies/smile1.gif, but not like this - [thumbup], http://www.discussworldissues.com/fo...es/tongue1.gif, [rofl], http://www.discussworldissues.com/fo...s/excited1.gif.

That's good news. Do you know what you need to do next? Start trying to put your problems out of your mind, they're under control, you're feeling better; so get on with living your life and enjoy the times you feel OK. Having your problems listed in your signature will not not help, since you're reminded of them everytime you post, get rid of them and take control, as was said earlier, you do appear to let them define you now.

Think about this, if someone asked you to tell them one very important thing about your life, what would it be? Going by your previous posts, it would be your illnesses. So try to believe that not just the drugs can help, but you can help yourself too, and a good start is to stop focusing on your illness now it's under control, i'm sure the shrink would have told you similar.

You're right. Thinking too much about personal feelings and sensations can drive people to abuse controlled substances because, for example, situational anxieties are normal and are one of the main drivers to accomplish something (to remove that anxiety). Life is also pain itself, so trying to completely remove physical or emotional pain will result in substance abuse. Those drugs are only to improve certain conditions and make life tolerable.

It's just... With this new stimulant (Nuvigil) I became a much better BF3 online player, so... http://www.discussworldissues.com/fo...ies/blush1.gif

Man, what a bonus. I got put on Amitriptyline, and they pretty much just knock me the **** out. I wonder if professional gamers get tested for stuff like that? [rofl]

I'm on a Antipsychotic called Olanzapine, helps with my mood, but I will NOT try Antidepressants again as it's one of the reasons I have epilepsy. I have good and bad days but to be honest I really need to do something constructive in order to get on with life, sitting around and thinking is no good and as someone with OCD keeping busy is the best treatment available, but it's hard at times.

I love music. Try this. Brilliant song imo. [yes]

That's a pretty good find. I don't usually listen to that type of music, but that is a good voice and you can just feel the soul of his piano playing!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IUlVZKqs5oc

im enjoying this track too much not to share it right now :P

so many more in my head wish I could make you feel the way these tunes make me feel. life would be a dream to you.

just random thoughts

Now this song is chill. Nick 13 the lead singer of Tiger Army released his solo album a bit ago, it's mostly like this. If you like that, check out some of these.

Tiger Army...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dgu53pXahww

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WtNDYqCT8hE

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w_VVXo5f27I

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ASycjQXd_-k