[TeksPaisimi]

as salaamu alaikum,

I have been wearing Niqab for around 14 years. I wore it out of choice and have never had doubts about it or considered taking it off. Wearing Niqab has never been a difficult or a burden for me as I'm naturally not a very outgoing person so it hasn't been something i have found difficult.

For around 5 years now, a lot of negative things have happened in my life that have affected me quite deeply. As a result i have become very relaxed with purdah in my thinking and because of this conflict in my mind, i am finding myself really struggling to wear Niqab on a daily basis. The fact that my emaan has taken a considerable beating during this time obviously doesn't help matters... The point i am trying to get across is that my way of thinking with regards purdah has completely changed. While before i would get extremely upset for days if my Niqab blew off on a windy day and a non-mehrem saw my face by accident, now, i wouldn't be bothered about it in the least.

I need to change my way of thinking to the way it was before and i have no idea where to start as this change of mindset has come about slowly over a long period. I therefore am in need of help and advice please. I find myself everyday making new excuses and justifications in my head about taking off my Niqab, please help...