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Hello,

Week 2 was a million times harder than week 1 and for one reason only: the weight did not come off as willingly or quickly. Over the entire week I only lost about 3.5lbs and 1 inch from my stomach... no inch loss anywhere else. It was (is) devastating, especially after a wopping 9 lbs loss the first week. As I stated in my last post I had TOM and didn't get to exercise as much but still... pretty disappointing. Yesterday I walked for an hour and also went to Bokwa in the evening, and only lost 0.4 lbs this morning. Have been swimming today so we'll see if that makes a difference tomorrow. Just to reiterate I have NOT cheated at all!! Been a good girl!! Because the weight loss has been slow/minimal it has been a greater struggle to stick with it, motivation has waned and on Friday I was DESPERATE to eat chocolate. But I didn't, phew.

Now I just have to work out my game plan from here. The long term goal is obviously to get rid of as much fat as poss, try to keep my boobs, and get my life and self-esteem back. I think HCG can give me that, but over a longer period of time. If week 3 is kinder and I manage to lose say 7lbs, FANTASTIC!! No, I won't be at my goal weight, but I'll still feel so much better. But I don't know how this week will turn out, so just going to assume it might be similar to this week. Which would mean my final weight would be about 123 lbs. I cannot go on holiday at this weight!! I will not feel confident in a bikini or fit into my favourite summer dresses.

I fully understand the point of Phase 3 is to maintain and I also understand why - to reset your hypothalamus so that, providing you continue a healthy, balanced diet, you will not regain the weight you lost long term. It teaches your body to weight the weight you are at the end of P2. EXCEPT I DON'T WANT TO BE THAT WEIGHT! I still have a lot of fat to lose!!

So what I'm thinking is, I'll do phase 3 - incorporate new 'allowed' foods, avoid sugars and starches and still watch my calorie intake, increasing it gradually. But I will not try to necessarily maintain the weight - if I continue to lose then that will be perfect. Same with phase 4. I KNOW that is against protocol but I need to get smaller before August 14th!! I'm also going to up the exercise and toning to give me more muscle (to burn more fat).

After my holiday (I plan to enjoy myself but not go mental) I will continue having a 'clean' diet, free from processed food and have a lot of P3 type meals. Obviously keep up the exercise. And this is how I want to live from now on. So if I go out to eat for someone's bday I order what I like without giult, because every other time I is healthy and balanced.

THEN if necessary, I might do HCG again in January. The reason for waiting this long is twofold:
1) I might not need to. If my lifestyle is healthy and I keep the weight off and reach my goal, FANTASTIC.
2) Before then it will be my birthday, my sister's 21st, Christmas etc etc... Again I don't plan on going crazy but I don't want to miss out on big events for a diet. Everyone knows that in January social life seems to decline and EVERYONE is on a diet.

In an ideal world I will be 110 lbs for my holiday. How realistic/possible that dream is will depend on how kind HCG is to me this week!!

What does anyone think about this?? Any tips/advice? ALL WELCOME! This is my first time on HCG btw.

Thanks guys!
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