[Paybeskf]

I think it started by me waiting too long to eat lunch, but I cheated and ate some tortillas and spinach dip. But I didn't stop there, I felt like I would just give myself a free ticket to eat whatever I wanted for the rest of the day. Idk y I thought it was a good idea maybe bc I have been having these vivid cheating dreams at night of eating chocolate and ice cream. Omg I then binged on like ten mini pieces of chocolate- reese cups, snickersetc then I felt sick but I was determined to eat some medium mcdonalds french fries too. I got home and I felt so sleepy*l forgot how tired carbs make me! I woke up like 3 hrs later and stuffed myself with a lean cuisine pizza, apple juice and banana pudding cup. It wasn't even delicious. I feel so ashamed, I didn't really even have a reason to cheat and I don't know why I stuffed my face so badly. I guess all the temptations where subliminally growing inside till I broke down. I don't have a scale so I don't know how much weight I've gained. I'm going to restart induction today