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http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/...arch=job+10-13


Read about Job!

[Kayakeenemeds]

Thank you both. It's awkward to try and do what you say, Jobeson, because I haven't tried talking to him after all that's happened. I don't hate God anymore, I feel that the reason I still want to cry after coming from a sermon or listening to preachers on T.V. is something much deep then the hell of life. I think I'll go back to church Sunday and have a talk with my pastor. I'm sure my relationship with God will start to repair itself.

[Kayakeenemeds]

It was a while ago that something so simple as ink on paper had destroyed my family and the peaceful life we had. My mother was placed in jail for a mistake she had made just by writing the wrong numbers down on paper and with what I had heard, she could possibly be in jail for 5 years. After that, she had to work 4 jobs to keep our old home and I could hear her crying at times when she'd come home early in the morning only to go off to another job 2 hours later.

We had to sell everything and move into an appartment in a place that I had no one to talk to anymore. I had blamed God for everything that happen, for what happened to my mother and what happens to her now. It's hard to go into church without feeling so mad, not just because I feel he wasn't there at all when my mother went through hell but because no matter what happen she still looked for hope in God and I didn't understand that.

Years later, I've realized that you can't blame the mistakes you made on God, but somehow, everytime I read something like,' Look up to God for he is always with you,' or hear,' Prepare your hearts for God,' I feel so heart broken and get teary eyed, and cry. I feel mad and I keep telling myself that I've forgiven him but I don't understand why I still feel this way after all this time.

My question is, after something so terrible happened to you in your life, and you feel like God left you for dead, how can you still believe in him and forgive him? Even though you knew the mistakes were your fault, but for some reason things kept getting worse after those mistakes, how can you still have the heart and will to forgive him?


Anna