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^^Actually i've never gotten that from a nonblack person. I chalk that up to the Crabs in a bucket mentality. I've also never gotten this from any well to do black people, whether wealthy, professors, business owners, etc etc. Notice the sort of black people that tell you this with their words or actions. Once you realize that their lives are a hot mess, you'll see that it's ignorance or jealousy that forms their philosophy, and be very proud to be the direct opposite of everything they stand for. For instance, I was once paying for things at a local convenient store when this broke ass homeless-looking woman goes to the other register and gives me this hard look like i'm doing something wrong. I was being friendly and joking around with the cashier...(People like that always look depressed. Like they have a chip on their shoulder and want everyone to be miserable.) That actually prompted me to be a little evil and keep talking. The thing that always differentiates me between black people who behave as this woman did, is my Fashion sense, speech, and behavior. First things you notice about anyone. Whether i'm in rock wear(Different) or business chic(Driven, persevering, etc), the look says, "She's not one of us" and it doesn't fit into "Their world". Casual looks of course don't look like anything in particular.

Oh yeah, for a brief while, when I went to Catholic school when I was young, there were a bunch of inner city black girls that came to study. Besides myself, there were already a few black girls at the mostly-Caucasian school, but we were quiet, whereas these girls would bring their loud boyfriends after school and start all kinds of drama. We just kind of avoided each other. I remember one comment from a girl that was like, "Ohh you must be white since you talk like that".

That's probably one of the first things that drove me to be so diligent. I starting associating who I was as disturbing the status quo and that that was a good thing and that I should indulge in it. At my other school, actually at both schools I was a know it all, I had poems published int he school paper, and the second school was coed, I had some boy try to engage me in a stupid spelling bee. I developed this, "I'm gonna say whatever the frack I want so I can get my participation points" attitude and so the teacher knew I was on his/her level. Teachers LOVED me. I made teaching EASY! In both of these specialized schools, there were still a lot of dimwits.

And in the coed school, that's when my music collection started building up, so in conversations I was liiiikkkkke....."Keeennnny G"? So uncoool. LMAO. I think I said that in a conversation cause I knew(In the Catholic school, I sat with the girls into alternative music) no one knew anything about the music I listened to. I already didn't like rap and all of that stuff...Random pop was ok. But yeah. No.

Whenever I hear things like that, I can't help but think i'm doing something right. As I said, measure up the sort of people who say those things.

I can't stand this "pawty like a rockstar" hipster attitude and music. Now everyone wants a guitar solo in their song. It's annoying. Kill it with fire.