[marketheal]

Okay. I know that if I say the word "experience" to a Buddhist, They will not take me seriously. Luckily for me, This was not an out of ordinary experience. In fact, I was only washing my hands.
A little information before I describe the change of perception: I've taken to asking myself "Who is doing this?" whenever I do something and I remember to ask (often). Who is washing the dishes? Who is drawing on the sketchbook? Who is watching television? etc etc. in this case who is washing these hands.

People have a "normal" perception of seeing the world. I write it inside quotations because it's a conditioned perception rather than a natural one. but it is the one most people see the world through about most of the time, so we'll call it "normal". This perception is from the viewpoint of the I. Like the I is sitting inside a movie theatre, watching life in the screen, hearing life through headphones. feeling life through cathodes in its skin.

What happened was that I was washing my hands after going to the bathroom in a hotel (vacation. very pleasant.) and as usual, inquiring. "who is washing these hands?"
I don't know if it's because I asked myself enough times or anything like that, but i saw things in a new light that moment. I was not sitting in the movie theatre anymore. I was in the screen. I was the voice in the headphones. I was just as much a sound in the world as the cars passing by. the "theatre" disappeared as well. all that remained was the perceptions being watched by......

That puzzles me. who or what watches. I feel like if i say God, Spirit, soul, etc I'm limiting it as another watcher. another I to sit in a theatre that isn't there; another fiction. What was watching was just as much part of the screen yet completely free. Weird, and inexplicably simple, so simple that I've already messed up pretty badly in trying to describe it to you. But the curious thing is that this was a very pleasant change of perception. I was laughing in the bathroom and didn't even know why. Usually thinking or conceiving that one is just another passing thing in a screen is daunting. But it wasn't really. I was ok with it. happy with it. I could've died of a massive heart attack that day and be completely fine.

Have you guys any information what is happening to me? I don't know what is happening at all. In fact, the fallout of the change of perception is just as curious. I look at a cloud, and I perceive the cloud looking at itself. I look at the trees and I perceive the trees looking at themselves. I feel more connected to the Universe. In fact, saying "more connected" is wrong. I feel connected to the Universe. period. I am the cloud looking at itself. I am the trees looking at themselves. The Universe has eyes and ears through my body, and looks at itself. I am a character or a narrator with a biased intention that comes along with the eyes and ears.

I'm not scared anymore of practice. In fact, I feel like I understand things a little better. But my question to you is where am I in practice? should I keep meditating as usual or change into something else? What is happening to me?

many thanks, om shanti.

[MasdMnPa]

That puzzles me. who or what watches. I feel like if i say God, Spirit, soul, etc I'm limiting it as another watcher. another I to sit in a theatre that isn't there; another fiction. What was watching was just as much part of the screen yet completely free.

Just continue on as you have been doing, when you notice watching taking place ask yourself "Who watches?".

[kranfid]

I'm with Goofaholix continue what you're doing. It sounds like it's working.