[lzwha]

Assalam alaikum,

I am an unmarried man, was living in a country where there was more fitna and loved it initially. My age is such that I could not control my sexual desires and was begining to fantasise too much. When I realised how close I am to Zina and when I began to fear death, and started learning the punishments etc in there hearafter, I felt so much self conflict.

So I decide to cut all my career ambitions and quit my job and move back to my country to live with family and friends. Here there is lot less fitnah and the restriction of freedom has made it very difficult to think about actioning such things until i get married.

I was losing self control day by day due to porn addiction etc and I was afraid of my own nafs and I was afraid that I might actually commit zina. I had made an intention that I wish to follow an islamic way of life. By this time I was already almost overcome by my desires and I was finding it very hard to fight it every day. Now that I have returned to my home country I have a lot less money and my status is decreased that I have returned and left a good job and money. Many people are wondering what happened, why would I leave such a great career and a great life ahead etc etc.. But its hard to explain to them whats really going on inside me.
The rest of my family will struggle a little because we wont be able to accomplish all our plans such as buying a car, a flat etc here as I am not earning in foreign currency anymore.

I feel that I have thought only about myself and not about my family. I have behaved selfishly. I feel like may be I should have just committed the act while I was living abroad and continue living the good life there so that my folks could be happy back here and I could start to take the lead role of providing in my family and my status would be the same.

But I chose to give it all up and move back so that I can cut myself off from Fitna as much as possible, even if it leads me to poverty. I dont know when I will get married. I intend to get married as soon as I get a job here in my home country.

Does this qualify as Hijrah? Am I on Jehad against myself?

Please help me understand what I am doing.

Many Thanks,
Jazakallah Khair

[ulnanVti]

I don't know if it is hijra, but one thing is sure, if you did it with sincerity, then it is an Ibadah. Sacrificing Dunya for Akhira comes with obedience of Allah Ta'ala. May Allah make it easy for us. ameen.

[hasasnn2345tv]

Assalam alaikum,

I am an unmarried man, was living in a country where there was more fitna and loved it initially. My age is such that I could not control my sexual desires and was begining to fantasise too much. When I realised how close I am to Zina and when I began to fear death, and started learning the punishments etc in there hearafter, I felt so much self conflict.

So I decide to cut all my career ambitions and quit my job and move back to my country to live with family and friends. Here there is lot less fitnah and the restriction of freedom has made it very difficult to think about actioning such things until i get married.

I was losing self control day by day due to porn addiction etc and I was afraid of my own nafs and I was afraid that I might actually commit zina. I had made an intention that I wish to follow an islamic way of life. By this time I was already almost overcome by my desires and I was finding it very hard to fight it every day. Now that I have returned to my home country I have a lot less money and my status is decreased that I have returned and left a good job and money. Many people are wondering what happened, why would I leave such a great career and a great life ahead etc etc.. But its hard to explain to them whats really going on inside me.
The rest of my family will struggle a little because we wont be able to accomplish all our plans such as buying a car, a flat etc here as I am not earning in foreign currency anymore.

I feel that I have thought only about myself and not about my family. I have behaved selfishly. I feel like may be I should have just committed the act while I was living abroad and continue living the good life there so that my folks could be happy back here and I could start to take the lead role of providing in my family and my status would be the same.

But I chose to give it all up and move back so that I can cut myself off from Fitna as much as possible, even if it leads me to poverty. I dont know when I will get married. I intend to get married as soon as I get a job here in my home country.

Does this qualify as Hijrah? Am I on Jehad against myself?

Please help me understand what I am doing.

Many Thanks,
Jazakallah Khair

This is an example of hijrah for the sake of Allah . May Allah reward you and make your condition easy for you and your family.