[arindiruppyr]

That is step number two - it will come at its own time.
Allah(SWT) says that there is a time appointed for everything.
Whenever you make a significant transition there comes a state of palpitations. In those moments you feel as if there is no ground beneath your feet. You are passing through that. Do not worry and just keep doing your duties.

I can only say inshaAllah.


That's incredible...these words here, give so much hope, alhamdulillah.

Being in limbo is terrifying, my thought going through my head is, if I died today...how would I answer to Allah. I'm only going through the motions like a ritual, barely making dua (well I am but the adaab of dua is not being met)....and Allah says in the Quran about the value and importance of the hearts, not the body...that's what scares me. With two young children, plus my own duties and responsibilities, it makes one feel really uneasy.

subhanAllah I feel so blessed.

Add to that, I've been getting lonelier - because I've slowly been taking some people out of my life - they were sappy my energy. They are not bad people at all, but keeping so many people, at my own expense, my dignity, my principles, my self-respect....it was very unfair to me. And when one realised they made a mistake, they came back, alhamdulillah. That was a friendship worth keeping. We said sorry to each other without actually saying sorry at all. Alhamdulillah - it was a silent acknowlegement of each other's mistakes without having to confront something that could have gotten out of hand...