[Cerilopasei]

Bulbul, on a non religious note, is there anyone that you can sit down with and talk about these feelings you are experiencing? I do think you need this based on what you described. Those feeling can be very isolating and will lead you to loneliness. Find someone you can confide invaluable and if you cant do that, maybe a muslim counsellor or therapist could be very useful. The most important thing is to talk about it and let all these feelings out and get a release from this stress. I hope you find your answers helpful here.

[ffdfriendforurr]

As Salamu Aleikum dear siblings in Islam,

I've recently had a lot of bugging, terrifying thoughts. It gets to a level that makes me wish to lock myself up in a room and keep in there just to ensure I am not engaged in anything haram, kufr or shirk. I feel totally overstrained, am unable to cope with situations, statements. I feel kinda loaded with doubts, fear, sadness and depression. I do not know what to do. I am questioning so many things in my life. Questioning is good to ensure you are pious and not engaged in impermissible things but I am not quite sure whether some of this questioning is related to OCD or waswas. (Is that the same or is there a difference, by the way?) Because it gives me a feel of panic and hysteria, which I know from an obsession to wash my hands, desinfect things and other stuff, which Shukr AlhamdulIllah has decreased and Shukr AlhamdulIllah is almost gone

What can I do, I am kinda going crazy?

So you have reached there.
Mabrook.
Allah(SWT) has brought to the stage where you have to decide what to believe and what not to believe. Whom to trust and whom not to trust. What to do and what not to do.
And in this stage the ground beneath one's feet moves. It is scary. One feels palpitations.
When I told the similar things to my Shaikh, that I am feeling palpitations, he said that this is also a state. That is all. No consolatory words or any such thing.
So there you are, in a perfectly fine fettle.
You have to ignore wasawis.
If they bother too much then keep aamantu billahi wa rasoolihi on your tongue.
Ask technical questions to Scholars only.
Trust only Allah(SWT) and his Prophet .
And remember all of us in your duas.
Wassalam

[toreesi]

Some weeks back I too had a problem of severe depression. The following dua from hadith helps me alot, If you wish you too can recite. After every farz salah and Tahajjud is the best time for making du'a. May Allah(s.w.t) helps you assist you and solve your problem
Aameen.
Here is the dua
it is stated in a Hadith to say the following supplication (in bold) to ease depression and anxiety:

عَنْ عَبْدِ اللَّهِ قَالَ قَالَ رَسُولُ اللَّهِ -صلى الله عليه وسلم- « مَا قَالَ عَبْدٌ قَطُّ إِذَا أَصَابَهُ هَمٌّ وَحَزَنٌ اللَّهُمَّ إِنِّى عَبْدُكَ وَابْنُ عَبْدِكَ وَابْنُ أَمَتِكَ نَاصِيَتِى بِيَدِكَ مَاضٍ فِىَّ حُكْمُكَ عَدْلٌ فِىَّ قَضَاؤُكَ أَسْأَلُكَ بِكُلِّ اسْمٍ هُوَ لَكَ سَمَّيْتَ بِهِ نَفْسَكَ أَوْ أَنْزَلْتَهُ فِى كِتَابِكَ أَوْ عَلَّمْتَهُ أَحَداً مِنْ خَلْقِكَ أَوِ اسْتَأْثَرْتَ بِهِ فِى عِلْمِ الْغَيْبِ عِنْدَكَ أَنْ تَجْعَلَ الْقُرْآنَ رَبِيعَ قَلْبِى وَنُورَ صَدْرِى وَجَلاَءَ حُزْنِى وَذَهَابَ هَمِّى. إِلاَّ أَذْهَبَ اللَّهُ عَزَّ وَجَلَّ هَمَّهُ وَأَبْدَلَهُ مَكَانَ حُزْنِهِ فَرَحاً ».

“Abdullah ibn Mas’ud (RadiyAllahu Anhu) narrates that Rasulullah (Sallallahu Alayhi Wasallam) said: No person suffers any anxiety or grief, and says: (O Allah, I am Your slave, son of Your slave, son of Your female slave, my forelock is in Your hand, Your command over me is forever executed and Your decree over me is just. I ask You by every Name belonging to You which You named Yourself with, or revealed in Your Book, or You taught to any of Your creation, or You have preserved in the knowledge of the unseen with You, that You make the Quran the life of my heart and the light of my breast, and a departure for my sorrow and a release for my anxiety) - but Allah will take away his sorrow and grief, and give him joy instead”

(Musnad Ahmed, #4406)