[Agedprepdoock]

Salam,
To keep it to a minimum i will spare you all the details and keep it fairly simple..
Growing up , i wasen't very religious, although i was firm on my belief in Allah (Swt), and i was certain this was the true religion, i diden't practise Salat 5 times a day ,and read the Quran only once.
This year has been soo difficult for me , i cannot even explain how many trials i have come across....which i feel that i failed to the displeasure of Allah .
At first , as ashamed as i am to admit this, i started having bad thoughts about my religion.It all started when i was in the car while my father went to go get something from a shop.and suddenly i thought 'what if i became christian' ...my heart skipped a beat ...and i instantly realised what i had thought and begged for forgiveness..then over the next few weeks as my final ALEVEL exams before uni started coming about i kept on getting horrible thoughts about the existence of Allah and the reality of ISLAM....
I begged Allah (swt) day and night to help me...protect me...save me...i would rather die than suffer this torment....
But Alhumdullilah , after weeks of praying Allah reached out and stopped these bad thoughts from the Shaytaan.
But now i have started getting this bad feeling ...its hard to explain....everytime i think of ALLAH...or anything islamic..it's almost as if my heart does not agreee with what i am saying..i say 'Allah is my lord and i worship him' its almost as if my heart is saying 'nope thats not true'.....i dont know if im confused or perhaps it's something else..but i am scared that these feelings are leading on to something bigger..such as suggesting that i am a disbeliever..im so scared..even thoughhh i say to my self physically mouthing the words ' no no no Allah IS my lord '...my heart seems to feel differently..even though i mentally picture myself with the Quran....and as a muslim...i have tried to think of all the blessings he has bestowed upon me..and i start crying ...so i feel i am healed...then later on when i mention Islam or Allah (swt)...the same disgusting feeling comes back....if anyone has any ideas about what this feeling of disconnection i feel... might be ..please feel freee.if you need any more info..i would be happy to give it...but for the moment i will leave you with just this.:/...Please pray for me to get rid of this feeling....and feel confident again. with islam..and Allah

[Master_B]

May Allah make things easy for you sister. not praying your salaah or reading qur'an will mean your imaan will gradually decrease. I recommend to step by step, practice your deen inshAllah, become learned, work hard doing good charitable work, be a beacon for your community, have good friends with strong imaan, inshAllah everything wil work out oik for you sister. Hang in tehre sister inshAllah, may Allah bless you and grant you Jannah

[SeftyJokipl]

Salam,
To keep it to a minimum i will spare you all the details and keep it fairly simple..
Growing up , i wasen't very religious, although i was firm on my belief in Allah (Swt), and i was certain this was the true religion, i diden't practise Salat 5 times a day ,and read the Quran only once.
This year has been soo difficult for me , i cannot even explain how many trials i have come across....which i feel that i failed to the displeasure of Allah .
At first , as ashamed as i am to admit this, i started having bad thoughts about my religion.It all started when i was in the car while my father went to go get something from a shop.and suddenly i thought 'what if i became christian' ...my heart skipped a beat ...and i instantly realised what i had thought and begged for forgiveness..then over the next few weeks as my final ALEVEL exams before uni started coming about i kept on getting horrible thoughts about the existence of Allah and the reality of ISLAM....
I begged Allah (swt) day and night to help me...protect me...save me...i would rather die than suffer this torment....
But Alhumdullilah , after weeks of praying Allah reached out and stopped these bad thoughts from the Shaytaan.
But now i have started getting this bad feeling ...its hard to explain....everytime i think of ALLAH...or anything islamic..it's almost as if my heart does not agreee with what i am saying..i say 'Allah is my lord and i worship him' its almost as if my heart is saying 'nope thats not true'.....i dont know if im confused or perhaps it's something else..but i am scared that these feelings are leading on to something bigger..such as suggesting that i am a disbeliever..im so scared..even thoughhh i say to my self physically mouthing the words ' no no no Allah IS my lord '...my heart seems to feel differently..even though i mentally picture myself with the Quran....and as a muslim...i have tried to think of all the blessings he has bestowed upon me..and i start crying ...so i feel i am healed...then later on when i mention Islam or Allah (swt)...the same disgusting feeling comes back....if anyone has any ideas about what this feeling of disconnection i feel... might be ..please feel freee.if you need any more info..i would be happy to give it...but for the moment i will leave you with just this.:/...Please pray for me to get rid of this feeling....and feel confident again. with islam..and Allah

Visit this link and study this this will help a lot

http://yunuspatel.co.za/books-whisperingsofshaitaan.php

[Agedprepdoock]

May Allah make things easy for you sister. not praying your salaah or reading qur'an will mean your imaan will gradually decrease. I recommend to step by step, practice your deen inshAllah, become learned, work hard doing good charitable work, be a beacon for your community, have good friends with strong imaan, inshAllah everything wil work out oik for you sister. Hang in tehre sister inshAllah, may Allah bless you and grant you Jannah

Thank You Brother, i have a good community around me,although a western one my best friend is very close to islam , i still try to pray as amny times as possible, although i dont read Quran directly since i like to understand what i am reading in Arabic,i read it in english....but i suppose...this lack of consistent Salat and Quran recitations..may have made me a weak soul to tamper with ...my iman must be very weak....but all i am confused about is whether this weird feeling i get is a whisper of the shaytaan..as i dont get bad thoughts anymore just an uneasy disconnected feeling

[SeftyJokipl]

Thank You Brother, i have a good community around me,although a western one my best friend is very close to islam , i still try to pray as amny times as possible, although i dont read Quran directly since i like to understand what i am reading in Arabic,i read it in english....but i suppose...this lack of consistent Salat and Quran recitations..may have made me a weak soul to tamper with ...my iman must be very weak....but all i am confused about is whether this weird feeling i get is a whisper of the shaytaan..as i dont get bad thoughts anymore just an uneasy disconnected feeling

This link must help you http://yunuspatel.co.za/downloads/Wh...f-Shaytaan.pdf

[Adimonnna]

Here is the cure: The Second Station of the Twenty-First Word

http://erisale.com/index.jsp?locale=...ent.en.201.281

Read it all carefully until the Twenty-Second Word.