[Fekliopas]

Every thing within my life is falling apart at this time. I've always thought in allah and I still do, but I feel just like allah's punishing me. I actually do not know why. I thought out-of position and a little different from everyone, since I was little. I'm in a key point in my own life, and I've worked very hard to make the journey to this point. Today, every thing is falling apart. I actually do not understand what to do. I've begged allah for aid. I usually prayed that allah could keep me on your path. What do you do when something which you're enthusiastic about doing (profession) has been removed from you? I truly don't understand what to do. I've tried so very hard and I don't understand what else to complete anymore. My mother once stated when you question allah for help and say a, he'll guide you or at the very least show you anything in your desires to help you. I truly am lost at this time.