[Zhgrlpil]

jazakallah khair sis.

I don't mean strangers will just come and hurt us, lol. I can't explain properly. Just thoughts in my head all the time. I guess its because we have through alot in the past. and its only natural to have ones guard up? but its getting excessive now. For example, I think my sister lies to me? I have to concrete evidence? IF she is too nice to me, I think she wants something in return? Thats just one example at home. At work, I feel my team mates don't want me in their team or always talking about me 'behind' my back and they have never given me a reason to? In short, I feel these 'suspicions' and 'paranoias' are just there from Shaytaan to break relationships? Does that make sense

Either its shaytaan or I'm going crazy. I wasn't like this before and I don't like thinking ill of ppl all the time. Theres a part of me that is becoming judgmental and I trying to fight this as much as I can, before it becomes as strong as my paranoia. Think I'll go crazy literally if this keeps up.

Oh ok i get what you mean. Not necessarily, some people are just nice a lot. It is true that some people may be really nice if they want something, allahu a3lam but most of the time people dont want something especially if its family. Soemtimes, i feel like when i pass by some people and theys tare and whisper i think that they may be talking about me, allahu a3lam, i think it is just our natural instincts, but we should ignore it, even if they are talking about us, who cares? they are the ones backbiting. Some are from shaitan, i think, and allahu a3lam, but maybe he is just jealous that you are having a good relationship with people and he does not have one, so the best thing to do is ignore, give people things they need if u can, and always say inshallah i will get reward for everything i do, and allah knows best!