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AA Brothers and Sisters,

I am struggling with my deen, the waswas has intensified to the point I feel now all the bad thoughts
I am having about Allah SWT are voluntarily.

I feel so hopeless and defeated for I know deep down in my heart that Allah has made Islam easy yet I
have turned something with ease to become so difficult on myself.

I love Allah with all my soul and the fact that I somewhat feel I've betrayed Allah makes me upset at
myself. I sometimes wish life could rewind back to last year when I use to put all my trust in Allah on
any small or big matter.

I try to keep my mind busy on proactive and useful matters but it just keeps coming again and again.

Alhamduilah my anxiety and fears have gone away but sometimes I think maybe Allah has removed the
anxieties away from me in this life only to punish me in the next life.

I really need encouragement and support and I can't really speak this to my family because I fear that
they might think I am a weak Muslimah.

I pray for Allah to keep the believing men and believing woman to remain steadfast in their deen and die as true Muslims Inshallah