[littlePen]

So I've read all but David's last two sections of the law of one study guide. Ever since I was a child i had a desire to serve. I was brought up in the church but as I got older I went my own path.

When I was 22 I was diagnosed with ADHD and I started taking Adderall. I should also add that I went through traumatizing experiences. My parents were extremely controlling and at one point disowned me. My father was physically abusive to me in my childhood and once in my adulthood. (I called the cops and after that he never laid a hand on me.)

A Few years after the traumatizing experiences I forgave my parents and moved in with my Dad. (When I was 19, my parents got divorced.) I moved back in with my father so I could go back to school. I should add that more traumatizing experiences happened after moving in with him; he wouldn't let me add music as a second major, wanted me to conform, told me there was something wrong with me.

But I forgave my parents and I love both of them dearly. Here's my reason for posting: I take adderall. I've been taking it for the past ten years. I've tried going off of it 2 times (3 if you count pregnancy) and I found myself unable to function without it.

I'm a musician and my mission is to share the love and hopefully help any listener ask questions, look within themselves ... I just want to "spread the love." I just want to do what many musicians have done for me, inspire me to wake up.

Is taking this gonna prevent me from ascending, or is it gonna make me have to go on to another 3-d world? I know my heart is in the right place, I know my soul is in the right place.

I gave my history because I think it helps in understanding my situation.

Love & Light ~ maeghan