[asypecresty]

i’m not exactly sure where to start with this!

i feel as i have been increasing in awareness, in consciousness. it’s not been increased to the level of total forgiveness and always being in a place of unconditional love. i’d like it to reach that point, in me.

i am feeling increasingly uncomfortable with not having made peace with this world. if i feel angry, or reactive, at things that don’t seem to fit with love and truth and harmony, i get physically uncomfortable, and it just does not feel right. i see and feel this is because anger and reactivity, can go against love, even when the motivation is love, my values.

there seems to be a contradiction, between the two, anger, and love. i feel both. my tolerance for certain things have decreased, and i have been becoming more direct and speaking my truth more. however, although this may be good in some ways, i know i need to be careful not to go against the very values that i have inside, love and compassion. i have noticed that sometimes, this has happened, and i am not happy with that. i question myself, how do i want to make people feel? i want people to feel loved, and accepted, but i have this drive, sometimes, to call it as i see it, to speak what i think/see/feel to be the truth. some people will appreciate this, and, some people will not!

i used to be a people pleaser (too much so), and was more accepting and tolerant than i currently am now. i want to find a nice balance in me, and i want to play my part in making the world a better place. i see and feel the good and the bad, and i can be very perceptive. the upside of this is intuition and being aware, and some good can come from that, if used wisely. however, i just feel so strongly that i need to be very careful in what i say to people and how i react, so that it is done in a way that is productive. i know it is a fine skill to speak your own truth and to do it in such a way as to not cause any harm. and although i know that we each are responsible for the way that we deal with things, i also see that i want and need to be responsible in the way that i communicate with people.

i care to work on myself to do this fine tuning and to create this balance, so that on the one hand i am not a total people pleaser, and being very supportive (and in doing so supporting that which may be causing a person or those around them, harm, such as one feeling sorry for themselves, or like victims, or blaming others), so as not to cause any harm, and not too much of calling it as i see/feel it when it may not be my place to do so or when i am not asked for my opinion or advice or help!

so, it is something that i need to work on. anything that does not radiate warmth, acceptance and love that comes from me i am feeling very uncomfortable with (even when it is with good intension and trying to help – as is most of the time).

when i went for a intuitive reading (that was very accurate) a few months ago, she said that i need to have acceptance and allowance, for all that is (and not go against all that is) and make peace with the world. i know this is true and i feel it strongly, the warrior in me that sees a lot of what is wrong in this world, can at times contradict this!

so, that is something that i will be working on, and it’s possible to be a peaceful warrior that always come from a place of unconditional love, forgiveness, acceptance, allowance, and understanding. also, i really am feeling that i want to vibrate at highest levels that i can, and anger, and reactivity, is not the highest level (though it is somewhere in the middle, with hopelessness and despair being at the bottom, and love and compassion being at the top, from what i have learnt this year on a course, that’s open to discussion, of course, but i can see some truth in it). she also said that i have the right to be pissed off with someone's ego (her words!).

i do want peace and love in this world, and one (i) must come from that place, be the change that i want to see, to manifest more of those things in this world.

anyone else going through this or have been through this?

[WhileKelf]

hello natalia.
i can understand your feelings, and allowance and acceptance is likely what you need. but the main problem is how are you going to achieve this?

i don't think we can achieve a state of unconditional love in this density, there's too many negative forces around - merely trying to help us understand free will, but still.

it's wonderful to see a person filled with the desire to serve and make good in the world, but you must understand that some people simply won't accept you. they are too far into their own darkness. but remember that they are too important. if all things were positively polarized, we would never progress in consciousness.

we all try. our brothers and sisters from space tries so hard too. they come in millions and actively help us understand how wonderful it would be to be together with the all.

funnel your energy to those that are open to your love, they are the ones that will help everyone the most. if you can make them fully aware, then they too can go out and spread love and kindness.

also remember: if something does not resonate, please leave it behind.

[JennaJJxoxoxo]

i would say follow your drive and speak your truth. you can't make anyone feel...that is always their choice. who knows though, i'm still learning.
be well and be blessed,
matthew.

[Fellionas]

it might help to examine the root of your thought patterns. thoughts create feelings.

i feel it is time for the world to learn how to embrace a deeper understanding of each other.....how to empathize with one another.

instead of judging each other we need to try to understand the causes of people's behavior, feelings, actions, etc. it starts to give a much wider perspective of everything, and enables us to feel a deeper acceptance of others, as well as to love and have compassion.

i think evil only exists because people forget who they really are.
a part of the unity of all creation.

[Romobencience]

there is a very nessesary purging of the aspects of your ego that are responsible for fear consciousness as a result of the ascension process. for our entire lives we have had the option to supress these core beliefs and lye to ourselves about them. that is no longer the case for those undergoing all of the natural side effects of the increasing vibration of consciousness.

there is a fundamental choice that we must all make in order to determine which side of the fence we fall on during this process. the choice is either to accept that these emotions are not a result of external sensory inputs or not. when you feel the negative emotions erupt from your consciousness in these days recognize it as something comming from deep within your consciousness. choose not to blame it on external things and it will become easy to let them go.

[denSmumbSes]

hi natalia,

i was (and still am) going thru all of this. i know how you feel, but i can only tell you that you're on a good way. forgivenes and allowance is a state which you can achieve very quickly, only if you stop questioning. why, what, where, who...simply don't ask, this is something you shouldn't realy care. just be you!

i've allways told my thruth, wheather some liked it or not. but i also allowe all other to tell their thruth too. it's all about feelings and how do you feel when telling your thruth and listening to other thruts. if you're able to find the right balance, you'll be more acceptive of some other, higher thruths.
higher thruth brings you higher awakening, this further brings you higher forgivenes and higher allowance. and so on and so on...
and some beautiful day...some day you'll find our thruth. at that very moment when you'll recognise this, you'll know you've find the balance and found your inner peace. and yes, you'll find that you're in love with all that is!!

it took me a while to understand this, and i still struggle sometimes to stay calm when i see things that i don't like! especially i sometimes struggle in the relationship with my own children.but i'm happy that they're here to teach me some higher trhuths! and i love them very much, beyond all that is!

so be sure to stay who you are. don't change yourself just for the sake of others! be prepared to accept all that is, as this is the only way to find your inner balance.
and it will not take long, you'll recognise that you're right here, at the right time, doing the right things. and this will be your earthly awakening!

don't allow negativity to influence you. try to dismiss the negativites from your vocabularity such as: can't, not possible, don't, no way and many more.

you have to realise that there are no limits. everything is possible. just don't ask how or why or...don't ask, be and do what you please.

even a spiritual awakening in this live and this density is possible!!!!

and yes, please follow your hearth! stay as you are, as you seem to be an angel here on earth, helping (pleasing) other people. i know it is frustrating sometimes, i'm the same.
but i learned that i don not need to be rewarded from those that i offer my help and please.

i receive my reward everyday, every moment. just allow to receive!

and you'll feel much better

[Frdsdx26]

thank you ayadew, dukemccormic, and ameliejolie for your replies. i am so busy today so cannot reply right now, but will reply tomorrow.

[NanoGordeno]

to be honest, that sounds to me quite positive. (the throat chakra, when stunted from the outside, produces anger) i've noticed a similar but not the same energy in myself. probably not the same because i am labeling it differently.

but in today's climate, it seems we're not getting the 'information', that would make sense of it.

as an example. sometimes shortly after david wilcocks audio and written works, a real sense of 'everything is ok' is brought forward. that is when information seems to disappate those sorts of feelings. (the blue chakra's peace).

[HassFks]

it might help to examine the root of your thought patterns. thoughts create feelings.

i feel it is time for the world to learn how to embrace a deeper understanding of each other.....how to empathize with one another.

instead of judging each other we need to try to understand the causes of people's behavior, feelings, actions, etc. it starts to give a much wider perspective of everything, and enables us to feel a deeper acceptance of others, as well as to love and have compassion.

i think evil only exists because people forget who they really are.
a part of the unity of all creation.

i totally agree with ameliejolie on this one. trying to understand the causes of people's behavior does help in acceptance. it's something i try to do in my life.

we are individuals in this grand illusion, yet one. to really understand that makes one realize that no matter what someone's choices are, they should be respected and accepted regardless if we totally disagree with their intentions.

that is what we are ultimately here for. to experience all that we couldn't in higher planes of existence and to take that experience back. without all the people in this world who do things that we don't agree with, how could we ever learn anything?

with acceptance comes appreciation. appreciation for all that is, in this grand scheme of things. it's perfection and always has been. without the experience there would be no learning. that is my thought process which helps me in accepting people for who they are and accepting their choices even though i would not choose to do what they do or react how they react.

hope this helps

[cristmiff]

i relate to your feelings and experience, natalia. and of course everybody's response as well. my understanding is that this desire for peace and love and all that good stuff can be a concept, and as such isn't truly experienced. and the frustration is wanting to be a certain way which is mind stuff, and actually being that way from the heart seems just out of reach.

and the harder one tries, the more resistance is created, things get difficult. i've been in a place where i just want to give up because it all seems impossible. someone once told me, there's this big wall in front of me that i want to get through, but if i try to tear at it with my hands they will soon be cut and bleeding, and i won't be able to get very far. but then all these people will come along, and together everyone will be working on bringing that wall down. in no time it will be gone.

there is no someday. that day is now, and it is happening. it just doesn't happen according to our timetable and belief systems and conditioning. we can be blind to what's happening right in front of our noses. the veil is lifting, we can't stop it if we tried. and adjustment is a process.

so i try to relax and know that it's all good. and it's all happening just the way it needs to. and my frustration and discontent doesn't help, so why indulge in it. right now i'm tired and jetlagged and grumpy, and it all seems so far away. but deep down i can feel the stirring of something wonderful. and i'm almost to afraid to acknowledge it, for fear of yet another disappointment. but never mind, the golden age is here, like it or not, be aware of it or not. it's here!

[TessUnsonia]

i think we're all probably distributed exactly where we're supposed to be in the world to help things out energy wise. we don't need to gather all in one place to make a change. thought isn't limited by distance of course. coordinated meditation times make sense.

[freflellalafe]

greetings one & all,

i do not know if this is a result of me being the "100th monkey," or a result of my "awakening process" to the overall group consciousness, but i got a "call" (for lack of a better term) this morning while taking a shower (i always get my best & brightest ideas while taking a long, hot shower)..... and there was just this feeling/understanding/general knowledge of "the time is now...... unification must begin...... it is time for peace." i also had an image in my mind of a gathering..... the world over..... of all the wanderers/indigos/starseeds/crystal children coming together en masse...... dressed in white..... singing, speaking, meditating...... for peace, for unity......synchronistically the world over...... in major cities all over the world, on the same day, at the same time.

i have not been participating in any of the group discussions with any kind of regularity, so if i'm "behind" in this, i apologize in advance. i try to keep up with everything, but there is so much information out there & i'm taking in what i can, while working out my own dharma. if this has not been posted, or discussed thus far, then let this be the first trumpet. this is something that resonates very strongly with me....... and i very much would like to be a part of this event whenever & wherever this occurs. this is beyond feasible..... it is inevitable. it's time to organize & bring forth the love & the light to push this planet beyond the tug of war that has been taking place into a place of balanced love, harmony & prosperity for everyone. it's time to gather en masse......

how does 10-10-10 sound to everyone?

much love, & much light to you all,

~ thomas

[HitAttetlyTek]

how does 10-10-10 sound to everyone?

i was thinking this will most definitely be happening on dec 22nd 2012 :d

on the other hand, if all us wanderers did this at the same time prior to 2012, they wouldn't have enough room to lock us all in the asylums! the gathering might be the difficult thing.

[textarchive]

I was at the New York-ish convergence and Larry Seyer spoke about acceptance and there were some questions in the audience about how far do you go with this concept? If there is a pedophile do you just simply shrug your shoulders and say "Ok, I accept you and forgive you?"

I spoke about how everything here is free will and voluntary and that contracts or agreements are made beforehand to have these experiences. I thought about it on the way home and would like to expand on the topic.

I view these events as invitations to join a negative or fear based vibration level. Anger, hate, disgust, etc are all fear based. When you have no skin in the game so to speak, this is just, say, an event that you've heard through a friend or in the news, it's important not to accept that invitation. That is what Larry was talking about - you simply accept that this event happened to serve some purpose and you move on. Leave it neutral.

Now if you're involved in some way it is important to set boundaries. You don't have to just accept and watch as your child, or any child is being molested in front of you. Boundaries are important lessons to learn and to not establish and maintain boundaries and just allow someone to walk over you is not helping them. So you deal with the situation that is in front of you in the now but you also accept what has happened and forgive that person after.

Do not hold onto anger, fear, animosity, disgust, etc. Do not judge that person. Sure, we have all agreed to a justice system and that person will be tried based on the facts but that is not for you to judge guilt or innocence. And when you do have to judge someone, say on jury duty, remember that it's only in the context of the illusion and whatever event transpired was likely pre-arranged and agreed to before this life.

It's a different way of thinking and for some it may take some getting used to. Everything in our lives is neutral until we give it meaning. You have the absolute choice in what meaning you give it and there is no reason to take some event that doesn't affect you and create negative emotions surrounding it. Just accept that it happened and move on.

This goes with everything. For example, on my way home, still 50 miles away, my motorcycle broke down. I didn't get angry or upset. I just accepted that for some reason that I may never know, it happened. Or maybe there is no reason, but bottom line getting angry, upset, fearful, etc would be unproductive. I happened to have just enough tools with me to make a temporary repair and it held together long enough to get me home.

I hope this finds those that it can help and those that have trouble judging people or events. Simply accept that there is a reason for the event, even if you will never know why.

Peace and love,
David