[abOfU9nJ]

I've been feeling rather emotional. Moodswings & feeling heavy like on my head is how I would describe it. I don't know weather it's a spiritual thing or just me.

I felt I needed to open myself up spiritually, I know I've been blocking out my spiritual side, I haven't fully opened up to it. Like the door is open, but i'm still holding it a tad closed & not allowing it to come through. This morning I felt the urge to try and meditate, I've always failed at meditating, can never get my brain to shutup but this morning I felt like I had some success. I felt like I was in a trance, I started re-enforcing my protection, I always try & make sure my protection barriers are up. When meditating I could feel my head very slowly swaying from side to side like someone was trying to channel me & I couldn't control it, I opened my eyes & it was still happening. I closed my eyes and tried to listen, I heard my name being called not just with my ears but with my mind & then I bursted out crying because it sounded like my dear uncle who passed away when I was about 13. He holds a huge significance in my life. This would be the 2nd time I've felt him trying to communicate with me, but both times I've bursted out crying and ended up walking out because it's still very emotional.

I guess, I'm wondering if I really am chanelling correctly or if this is just all in my mind and all due to my current moodswings. & if my uncle really is trying to communicate with me how can I put aside the emotions so I can have a full moment with him instead of me rushing out & closing the connection. I know I am a very sensitive person, I feel for others very easily. I get very emotional when I sense others are going through tough times. Since I've started my spiritual discovery I do find myself feeling more humble towards others like I see past their exterior.

[GutleNus]

Being empathic is a fine gift but one needs to learn to manage it, otherwise it can be somewhat overwhelming. Believe me, I know. We have to be selective in the feelings and impressions we receive from others, especially those from other realms.

Not all entities are who they claim to be and some will take advantage of those who want to channel for their own purposes. Most beneficial entities or related ones will not seek to control you or your body. That raises a red flag for me right there. You need to be specific when erecting shielding and set up the harmonics so nothing can get through unless allowed or invited by yourself. Just go with your feelings. If something doesn't "feel" quite right, it probably isn't.

[abOfU9nJ]

thanks a bunch

The heaviness on my head felt unusual, like someones huge hand was on my head & was trying to push me into the ground. The head swaying was like someone was trying to get my attention & as my head went to each side I kept trying to listen more attentively.

[TiepayWrary]

It sounds like you are making a connection. Emotions are very normal when you start to meditate; think of it as releasing. Your uncle is helping you get through your grief in this way. Telling you that he's not really even gone, just different.

If you think calling it channeling helps, then go ahead, but everyone has the ability to talk to their guides and relatives through meditation. It's communication.

[abOfU9nJ]

Telling you that he's not really even gone, just different.

that's the most beautiful quote ever. *tears* I've never looked at it that way.

The biggest problem I had was meditating. I tried guided meditation & I could never go in & then out of the blue, I just had this thing where I had to go & meditate & straight away it happened. I tried a couple more times & I slipped in immediately. Because it was really only my first time meditating I didn't know what to do when I was. LOL. I just soaked up the relaxation. Think I need to get me some podcasts now & give guided med. another go.

[TiepayWrary]

Takes time and practice. Never give up