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I jumped into the shower this morning after waking up to prayer. While in the shower I wanted to see colour and events playing in my mind without hearing the colour or events. I have had this issue with having to HEAR what I am seeing. example: opening my mind's eye and projecting any colour into the room I am in and seeing it fill everyone with that colour ... breathing in that colour..tasting that colour...living in that colour. Yet everytime I was going through these events in my mind I would hear something in my mind explaining the event that is taking place rather then just seeing it take place. I was wanting to stop the talking and just see the events...take away the energy from hearing the voice and apply it to the application of seeing and feeling, almost similar to how someone who is blind can sense things stronger.

So I concentrated all my attention on the shower and the water coming out of it. I imagined the water as a rainbow of colours coming out in a shower of energy and washing my body, my mind and my soul in this energetic array of colour. Everytime I would hear in my head ''what do you see'' and I would hear a response ''a rainbow''. So I began to pinpoint exactly where that answer would come from and try with all my will to stop the voice and it took everything and more then I had to stop this voice from answering. Eventually it began to slow down ... I was able to see something coming, which looked like this black goo, into me and pushed it out through my chakras out the top of my head and wrap it in a bubble of energy then push it out away from me. I invisioned as I was a spirit standing in the shower absorbing the energy from the water the colours washing over my whole being and eventually I could taste energy, smell the water, sense the water, sense the energy going into me.

Again the voice ''What do you see'' and instead of it stopping it repeated itself over and over and over again I actually had to push away a sense of fear only because whenever these meditations get this intense my imagination shows ugly images that are fear based. ''What do you see, what do you see, what do you see'' My mouth opened and I began to push air out of my chakras, if you have seen Matrix or have watched Dragon ball Z it was similar to when Morpheus was captured and Neo was in the helicopter and was rescuing Morpheus right when he was breaking the cuffs off his arms. Or when powering up to super saiyan form. My whole body began to tense, all my muscles filled with blood and energy my fingers contorted and I just pushed forward, I felt the energy raise from my root chakra up and up and up the pressure in my head was absolutely amazing!!! and it all went to my mind's eye in this HUGE release and opening. I felt my eyes look up and then back and another sight opened up. I felt a slit on my forehead open up and then right infront of me, while my eyes were closed, a bright jagged circle appeared. It had a green outline and flashing purple in the middle yet it was not complete it looked like it had rough edges, and in the middle of it was a lot of dark patches. The patches would disappear then reappear right in the middle almost as though the white light was too much for the dark patches and would make them disappear. So I let go of everything I knew to be anything and put everything into what I was seeing. The circle grew and stretched into a perfect circle the colour was a soft white glow with very very calming purple flashes in the middle. It was the most amazing thing I have yet to recall and be part of. NOrmally in situations like this something stops it all from happening and it's broken before I can feel, sense, and see anything happening. Then I could feel energy peirce through my heart chakra like it was bleeding out negativity, like something was behind me pushing energy through me to heal and cleanse. I was beginning to get nautious and losing a lot of energy fast so I scrambled out of the shower and laid on the bed with a Bible on my chest.

To me it looked like my mind's eye had a lot of self doubt and dirt, so to speak. It was not functioning at the rhythm it can function at and needed a huge push of energy to re-open. Also since I stop most of what happens to me God and my guides decided to pick up the intensity this time cause I surrendered my all to God.

Tomorrow I go for Reikei healing Ushara I think she said, it's only 40 bucks for a 3-4 hour session. Using first stage energy then second then third in three different sessions. My concern is what she will feel and her safety when pumping energy into me. She reassured me that she is only a vessel of energy that the Universe uses to pump energy into my Energy points. She then follows with balancing the chakras and an auric cleansing. I am very excited!!!

Thanks for reading I know it's long yet I do recall saying I am going to post things on here again. And wow I am sweating now LoL.

God Bless
Love and Light
Amen