[Mboxmaja]

Some strange things have been taking place in my life, and I think it's beginning to really startle me, almost scare me.

It started with a healing I did on someone, on Feb. 1st. This person has become a good friend now, and we have shared a lot of experiences with the spiritual world.

On February 9th, I had some kind of an awakening. I'm unsure what happened...but I suddenly felt my soul waking up; that's the best way I know to describe it. I felt my life's purpose, my soul's age... I felt bigger, older than this life, like this life was just one step and perhaps even the last step. Very soon after this realization, I had a strange out of body experience... My soul rose up above my body, and there were brilliant colors and white, white light. I remember seeing orbs...I remember feeling as though I knew everything, almost, even though my conscious brain couldn't understand everything. Energy was flowing in and through and around me in weird ways. I couldn't stop smiling. My guide came to me and hugged me in spirit form. It was the most amazing, most indescribable thing...

Inevitably things calmed down. But then things started to happen. I noticed certain things. And in general, I have been emotional and full of ups and downs in the days since. I notice things like my guide trying to get my attention, and how I feel a tingling sensation on my arm in a hand-sized area when he wants to talk to me. I have always loved writing poetry, but lately I am writing up to five poems in a day - I can never seem to stop. I hear ringing in my ears. I get headaches and dizziness sometimes. I've been having nightmares that bring every single fear I have to the surface of my mind and force me to look them in the eye. (During the OBE I realized that my life's purpose was at least in part to overcome some kind of "cycle of fear". Could this be part of it?)

I'm starting to get a little freaked out by these sudden changes. Is something wrong with me? What is going on, here? Is this truly spiritual, or have I really lost it this time?

[kesFockplek]

maybe something is missing in your life and you know it but wouldn't act on it? something to do with love or relationship maybe? not with a partner but with families and friends perhaps?

[bactrimtab]

When you have worked with spiritual energies do you close down and ground yourself? There are different rituals (for want of a word) which people use.
The same applies when opening up to the energies. Some people feel the need to ask for protection, again in various ways, and they may also perform grounding techniques at the start too.
Doing some research on the net will provide you with lots of examples. Finding one that suits you is the key, as some appear elaborate, in my opinion, whilst others less so. It all depends on what works well for you, so you may want to try a few before deciding on one.
Above all else when working with energy, you are the one who is in control, no one else. Not even your guide.

[Figelac]

It sounds like you have had a spiritual awakening. It also sounds like you were a little unprepared for such an experience and the headaches, and tingeling feels and the fears surfaceing sounds like a form of anxiety or panic attacks. Spend some time bringing yourself down to earth and grounding yourself. Tell your spirit guides that you want to continue to learn and grow, but to slow it down a little bit because it's to overwhelming. Then take the weekend to go out with your friends and have some fun, some earthly fun. Once you ground yourself and you learn to balance the spiritual and the earthly plane things will be alot easier. It just takes time and alot of meditation. It also takes your will, to be able to open it and shut it off on demand. Your not crazy, this happens to alot of people. When it feels like your spirit is seperateing from your body, like it's being pulled elsewhere and everything seems so out of control. I can't say this enough, ground yourself. and bring yourself back down to the early plane. Go to the mall or beach or clubs or whatever. Watch a favorite movie ect, and come back in a few days for a couple of hours, and then stop again. Do something else, like dishes laundry ect. I hope this makes sence. This will help train your mind to open and shut it off.
Blessed Be,
Angel
P.S. you were born with your abilities, it won't go away by doing this :_)