[lasadeykar]

Fear attributed to the spider as a physical manifestation of it?

Spiders are scarry, especially the big one's

I'm back! My phone line was dead, but its back now.

[911_993_911]

Fear is scary.

The spider is not scary!

[Triiooman]

I think that it has a lot of meaning spider are not really scary so does fear!

[ValintinoV]

over the last two or three weeks i have had alot of spiders crawling (other insects too) into me and they seem to head for my left hand side- i spoke to a dear and wise friend about it and she said that spiders absorb anger - and that they were just doing their job... weird i thought. especially as i liked with RAGE for years and spiders actually chose to move out my house not come in... except for that nast little (harmless looking) Violin spider... Extremely dangerous! Ha ha ha ha

[lasadeykar]

Yeah, I used to get mad at spiders and kill them, but now I feel bad, and can't do it. They don't even run away, its weird. Luckily they kind of know not to crawl on me, more or less.

It's interesting that you say that about the absorbing rage thing, because I had this pet spider in the corner of my room for about a month, and then I had a really tough time with rage, and he got kind of antzy.

Then, he started walking really strangely, and never came back. At the moment he left, my rage subsided. Poor little fella, I had no idea that they did that shizzle until now. Thanks for your post ZenChi!

(Maybe I just scarred him off with my energy or something)

[911_993_911]

I've been reading about animal totems and looking out for symbolic meanings.

Last night, at about 3 in the morning - it was a restless sleep (I also posted on the dream section with a weird snake dream) - I woke up to check my son.

He was fine - but a pair of his socks were in the hall. There was no logical reason they were there, and I just moved them to the side until the morning. As I turned to my bedroom door - a huge huntsman (big, scary but totally harmless spider) stood at the door. I've never seen them on the ground in a house - they are usually on the walls.

I thought to shove it to the side (it was on a mat I could flip over) - but as if reading my intention - it ran straight into the bedroom.

I was quite horrifed - how could I sleep with this big thing somewhere close by - but I steadied myself - thought about what it could possibly signify.

I thought about it - the spider is indeed harmless. So, what was I afraid of? Why couldn't I have the spider in the room? Because, I answered myself, I couldn't live with the fear.

Ahh, so it was unrealistic and intangible fear. I laughed to myself and went to sleep.

Then!! This morning, I received some mail from my partner's home town - and I got a strong feeling of 'fear' and resentment - and I thought about the spider.

I actually have no reason to be afraid to move next year. There is no real threat. I'm just afraid of change.

The thought of the spider helped steady my nerves and I thought - ok - its just a fear - and this I can deal with - especially if its a fear of 'fear' ...

[Yfclciak]

I have a pet tarantula spider living in a shoe box for more than a year now. He (or she) is not poisonous and really cool. I caught it in the mountains. I didn't know if they absorb anger, but I'm kinda grew attached.

[lasadeykar]

ahhh, how sweet