[hitaEtela]

When I was 21 (I'm 37 now), I had the changing event of my life.

I thought that I had an encounter with 'GOD'.

I'd been bought up an athiest. Anything 'strange' that happened to me, was my imagination. I was a weird kid.

On this particular day - I saw the world, literally every particle, every cell formation, merge - so that I could see underlying the outside form, we were all one.

It changed the course of my life. You know, the only 'law' I was given, from the whole experience, the only realy guidance I had, was 'do not eat another animal' - ...

I gave up meat - and have been a vegan and now a vegetarian since.

I had and have, a lot of spiritual growth ahead of me - but this 'god' stuff - its for the non beleivers too - its just that they are blind and deaf to the calls. Don't give up, cause at any moment, they might have an experience that awakens them, as it did me..

I am so happy, and so relieved, to have so many open minded people here. I'm so thrilled with the opportunites of the internet.

Thank you all for contributing.





I have posted previously about this here, if you'd like to look.

[Misespimb]

Cool.. Weird that thing about the vegetarian diet advice though!

[hitaEtela]

yes, it was weird - when its out of context.

but for me - and it was definately not to try to convert others - it was understanding that by hurting another - I would be hurting myself.

It did not make me judge others for eating meat. but if I kept eating it - I knew I'd be going against direct guidance - the thought has never occured to me not to obey...

By the way - I cried for three days, and my, what i later discovered to be my crown chakra - was ablaze - I literally thought people must be able to see something coming out of my head. I was incredibly embarrassed by it all when I met people. i felt like a freak -

[hitaEtela]

A friend of mine asked me if I was 'sure' about what happened - am I sure that it wasn't my ego - or something that could be explained psychoanalytically -

Its a valid question. No - I can not be sure in a rational sense. How can I explain it - its not explainable.

I wrote him this - just in case anyone else was wondering...

(by the way - by sharing, we help each other, in this forum, to give our own feelings validation. We all live in the 'real' world - we know what it means to face ridicule and disbelief - its ok to be human - I think - together - as intuitives and believers in love as the highest good - we can make a difference.)

"time, of course, makes me view the event with unavoidable distortion - but I'll give you what I can remember -

I was living in the country. I'd been a universtiy student - studying literature - and wanted a break to see what I thought about the world. remember, my parents are athiest, and if anyone was going to doubt the experience, it was me - it was undoubtable.
I had never read anything about this type of phenomena before - I couldn't - it was all repulsive to me - due to my mother's ridicule of anything related to religion or god...

I remember - the merging - the single unity of all things - I remember feelig hit with utter certainty that we were one... without doubt - the rest was just the surface (not actually illusion) - but we didn't see it - because our eyes were tuned to the surface....

When it happened, I was just walking - a normal day. During this time - i was writing a novel - i was the most peaceful I'd been in my life so far - so depression - no.

the presence, or the awareness, or what ever it was, was with me for three days. Of course, I thought, when I wake up tomorrow, it will be just my imagination - and no- it was stil there - I cried and cried for the awareness - I was touched with compassion for all of us - walking about with hatred, with visions of our own individuality, with out own ideas of lonliness - I was moved and shocked and horrified by our EGO telling us so many distructive things!!

I was terrified of talking to anyone about it - how could I? I had been the first person who laughed at and could no accept 'god' or any idea of a creator - or any idea of what it was - the name I put to it wa 'all' --- it was 'all' - I found that Pan, was also 'all' - the good, the bad, the natural - evreything.

Humans lie. People are tricked by their own ego's all the time - including me. I don't trust us - we are but only human. What I do trust is this 'all is one'. I know it came through me - but it was not from me... I didn't say it - 'it' said it - or showed it to me... I trust it more than any person I have met.

By the way, I skirted the issue... I went this way and that way to try to find a 'method' that supported the idea that 'all is one' - I found yoga, buddhsim - quite a few other theories that are based on all is one - including the jains....

As I began to accept it - into my real daily life - I became happier - and less worried about what other people think - and now - at the age of 37 - I have began to 'trust' it, without doubt - to ease my ego off me shoulders, to trust that inner voice - and amazingly - what comes out - is ways to increase my happiness .... and I don't mean eating donuts, or short term sensations - I mean - increasing active love - love of myself and others - by not judging, by being open hearted, open minded - and I can feel my feet solid on the ground - and the world is showing me another side - a side of itself that makes me so happy to be alive.

trust.... I trust it....

ration can only go so far.... I know it ... and its hard to let it go - but every atom is drawn to other atoms - they say they are - but how - nobody seems to answer - Bentov says - atoms are energy - and more than that - energy with consciousness - and this simple statement - this simple adjustment of the word 'energy' - makes the world of difference....

Its the missing link - "

[Triiooman]

really interesting post, thanks for sharing you experience! never had a close encounter with that!

[hitaEtela]

You know what - I realised yesterday - that if you want it - you can have it.

Next time you are in meditation - just say 'i'm willing to be open to the experience of the *****' insert what ever name it is you feel comfortable calling it... and sit and relax.

It might not happen immediately - but your world will change and you will see -