[Kliopeion]

A "friend" from work invited me to a cookout today and I gave her directions to my house and everything and she said her and her boyfriend would come pick me up but when I called this morning, I got one answering machine and then I called again her mother answered and she informed me, she had changed her mind and she would have the cookout some other weekend She had went to a yard sale today instead.

At this new job I didn't and still don't expect to make friends or bffs but this girl could've had the audacity to call me back (she gave me her phone number in a letter explaining if I ever needed to talk than I can call), perhaps she doesn't have caller ID but otherwise, this sucks.

I'm trying to not be such a homebody and change my life some and go out some but all these setbacks and I guess right now I'm just not in an environment to make good friends or find a boyfriend Though it's frustrating because I'm at a point of my life where I want to change everything. Maybe I can change more in college.

[T5qYkHWQ]

You'll learn to depend on yourself more and avoid disappointments that way. I don't mean to sound critical but people will always disappoint. Just change your way of thinking and you'll be a happier person. Expect pitfalls and disappointment in others and make your own happiness.

This is a lesson that took me a long time to learn but when I did everything changed for the better.

[Kliopeion]

Trust me, I've dealt with pitfulls my whole life. Kids can be so cruel. And today's not my day, I want to rest, and everytime you are miles away from the phone it rings, and everytime you put it closer to you afterwards, it doesn't ring. Saturday and I had to run a quick errand for my dad, grrr and my dog's barking at random strangers and nothing again

I swear when I live on my own, I don't want nothing but a cell phone I can turn off conveniently. Takes too much energy to unhook all the phones LOL

[T5qYkHWQ]

Good idea

[Kliopeion]

*pitfalls* I meant to say. I'm feeling a little better now. At least yesterday was payday (though I'm not getting paid good ) and I have a long weekend and don't have to go back until Tuesday.

[catermos]

Okay, google EFT, try it, be positive, work out all that negativity. You are self sabataging, don't worry I used to do it all the time, now I quikly change all those neg thought as soon as I get them. Its hard to be positive when you're getting slammed down all the time. I'm being cruel to be kind, I wish I could give you a good kick up the bum and make you see how good your life could be. I know how cruel kids can be, I know how hard life can be, i know what its like on welfare/disability - been there, done that got the t-shirt to all of the above. Please, please look into EFT, don't dismiss it, I think it can really work for you.
Right, now I have given you a mental kick up the behind now I'm sending you a big hug ((((((((Princess))))))))))))))

Jan

[CymnMaync]

Hi princess, i have to agree with both raven and jan.

Maybe look at the situation positivly, maybe your guides decided she is not a good influence for you or perhaps, your higherself could see the timing is not good to let this person enter your life, not his wekkend anyway.

Love yourself more, find 10 good things about yourself and post em here.

We are here to support you as you can clearly see by Raven and Jans post.

So go for it! what is ten things you like about yourself. And look in the mirror when you do this.

Then when your having a bad day and feel lonely, we can post something about what a great person you and using your words. What have you got to loose??

Come on Princess spill.

[Kliopeion]

I'm sick of my sister pointing out that I'm completely miserable because I can't have what I want and I'm sick of it. She strongly discouraged me from acting and other stuff and she says I can't handle a job, blah, blah, I should go on disability.

It's not like she's completely happy in her life (she's been disability for 10 years or more for bipolar) and she's constantly crying about the debt she's in.

Basically she doesn't want me to do better than she did. Which so far I actually am doing a bit better. She onlly had like 1-3 jobs and they didn't even last as long as mine did before she spent time in a hospital and was declared insane. She did go to college for a year but she has no degree, not even a certificate.

[Kliopeion]

Something positive....well, even if I've been pretty miserable in the past years, at least all these ups and downs will make me a better or stronger person Regardless of what anyone thinks.

[catermos]

thats it, be positve, I know its hard and I know there will be people around you that can't accept that you want to move forward with your life. You can be anything you want to be. Look for a good affirmation to do each day. Stick it on your mirror, say it in your mind when you feel you need to.
We are all handed situations in our lives that sometimes we think we cannot handle, its up to us to CHOOSE how we deal with these things.

Jan

[Kliopeion]

Thanks, I'll need to find a couple of them

[Kliopeion]

Well I decided to go ahead and finally buy "The Secret" used and cheap on amazon.com along with a used and cheap (but good rating) DVD of Francis Coppolla's Marie Antoinette. I saw part of the movie a couple of nights ago and liked it and I haven't actually bought a DVD (well actually I received for a b-day/Christmas present) since Britney Spears' Crossroads. LOL and I haven't watched the movie in years. I got a couple of other DVD's but they aren't movies. Ones the Concert for Diana special and the other is an exercise video that's hardly ever used. LOL