[SeftyJokipl]

Hi ,

Dont quite know how to begin what i want to say , seem to have a problem , well maybe i shouldnt call it a problem but not sure what else it is,

im 32 yrs old, married with 2 kids , been married for 10 yrs now and have a very happy life,
Ive always been interested in spirituality/bible/pastlives etc since i was in my early teens, my mother is very interested in it and has for some twenty years now ,shes does tarot readings, and angel readings... I my self have angel and tarot cards but when doing a reading for myself never quite understand what the reading is trying to say, so dont really use them.

Anyway hes the really crazy bit that im having trouble with.


Several years ago , almost 3 now if i can think back right. my husband totally wiped my comp clean -back to factory state. I lost all my music as i didnt know how to back up my files ,was a little peeved that i had to DL all over again , so instead i listen to some of my fav tunes thru msn video.
I sat down to take a break and have a ciggy and clicked on the next song i wanted to listen to.

When the video came on i started to watch it, and it felt that my breath had been taken away and his eyes were trying to tell me something, my chest filled with something, cant really explain the feeling it was really strange.

I would just like to say that this guy had never got my attention before tho hes been around for years on Tv and in the papers, I knew the name and just liked few of his songs, never even seen him in a music video before.if i had to discribe him before this happened i would have said he was a bit of a twit.

For weeks and weeks after is happened id hear his music playing when i walked into shops in town, on the telly as i walked past the living room. Thankfully it kinda stopped which was a relief as every time i heard a connection to him my chest seemed to fill with the tight feeling which i was getting a little worried about.
And if im honest with myself i was on the lines of thinking i have a crush on a popstar ...ewww, at my age....

As i said things settled down and i never had the tight feeling in my chest , UNTIL christmas day 2006 and as every year look up what is in store of Gemini over the coming year. bearing in mind i take it with apinch of salt, but its kinda a tradition with me , ive done it ever since i was a teenager.

I found a web site which wanted my email address i sent it a a few days later got a very long email back about my coming year , never had one of those before so read it all, at the bottom , i cant quite remember what it all said but to this day all that stands out is the the person you are with is not your soul mate.

This disturb me very much as altho i had never really considered soulmate before i always thought that i was ment to be with my husband.

All i remember next is that i had this overwhelming feeling come over me and this guy popped in to my head.....

I spent the next few weeks in a bad way, i looked up soulmates on the internet brought books on the subject even showed my mother the email. She knew i was having problems with this so got me a pack of angel cards and said to use them as they would help me with what im feeling... she cleared my chukras for me which was and amazing experience. i started meditating which was another amazing experience, also got some oils and candles and felt a real connection with my inner self, and was talking to my angels, giving them my worries and felt a totally new person.

Anyway , some time later cant recall
all the time lapse, i was flicking through the paper and this guy was in there, he was in a bad way from what i read so, with all my research on angels i sent my angels to him for extra strength so he could get though his bad time, this hadnt been the first time i had sent my angels to others, i had been doing quite often with watch the news etc...
For about 3 weeks he was constantly popping up in my mind, this time though my angels were playing a part in it. He would pop into my head at the most inconvientant times and my angels would tell me to go to the window. this was happening a good few times a day and also the tight chest feeling was there too.
I remember mediatating and asking my angels to clear up what was going on- not only was igetting thismy mind was going insane thinking i was insane,
while mediatating tho a picture came into my head of this guy lying on a bed with his clothes on shaking, i asked my angels what i should do and was told to put my wings around him,- didnt know i had wings but did it all the same. i remember seeing hugh white wings cocooning him, and he spoke to me , the words "your back".
All i remember was i stayed till i knew he was sleeping and unwrapped my wings then i wake to real life again. 2 hrs had almost past, altho it didnt feel like it .

i assume him popping into my mind was him calling me so whenever i could i meditated and every time i was told to wrap my wings around him. i started to talk to him too, i told him every thing was ok and that he would be fine and if he ever needed me just to call,

This went on for about 2 weeks, thenone day in the paper i read he was doing fine and he was back to his usual self.

Never heard or thought anything else of him, tho i do send my angels to him too keep him safe just as i do to all my family and friends most nights.

But since november its starting to come back, cant expalin it at all tho,i am sent to the window everytime and when i look out the window all i see is apart from my garden is tiny white flickers of light, lots of them all in front of my eyes. weird thing is its only a certain window that i see the flickers from. tried all the rest and cleared the window several times incase it was the dirt causing them.


Im not sure if any of this is connected, im just wondering if anyone else has experienced this kinda thing.
And if anyone knows what is happening to me please tell me


Srry for any spelling mistakes and hope it all makes sense,

May my angels protect and keep you all safe


Lelina