[Caliwany]

I just wanted to update this thread. I know it was a weird post. I didn't want to be leading before and wanted to know if anyone who was a healer experienced something similar. My guides tell me I am one but I don't think it is through touch (I think it is through my voice).

Anyway I talked to my dad who is very similar to me interpersonally and it seems like it is more psychological. Fear of intimacy, fear of the response from the person, and lack of full understanding of social do's and don'ts.

If anyone has any further insights I'd be happy to hear. I know people are probably lurking and I didn't want to just leave this post hanging.

[bpejjssoe]

Hi Lovelight. I go through the same thing like with sitting by people I don't know. For me, it seems to be the same kind of thing you're talking about, although I'm not exactly close to my family, but today I hugged my teacher because she helped me through a very hard hour... And it felt good, because of that warmth from someone I respect, who cares about me and all her students and who has apparently gone through a lot of things in her teens that I have been now, not that I know what exactly. That was probably the first time I've hugged anyone in months, which is typical for me because I don't feel close to anyone. I didn't want to before because the people I did feel close to for a time...well, when I hugged them, like some close friends or even my mom, I felt disgusted and uncomfortable and didn't know why. At the time, my friends all seemed quite normal and good people. I found out later they were going behind my back and lying to me, making up strange paranormal experiences that weren't really real... one particular friend was my best friend, and she is insane. Not haha, not exaggeration, insane. and then it seemed clear.. At that point, it felt as if in the back of my mind that was why I never wanted to get close to even my closest friends. I have detached from them now for the most part, and might seek some closure... because I don't know, I feel like in order to release all that toxic stuff that entered my field, I need to talk to them again and make peace.. I feel crazy inside my body and can't sit still(literally) because I feel like I'm held down by the energy I got from these people and never resolved situations fully. It's pretty painful.

Anyway, how that might relate to you is maybe your sensing something in the background, or something that might be coming from people later on if you would get involved with them. Like clairvoyancy, except it's touch related. I just came up with that from reading your thread... I've never thought about any of this before. And maybe there are some past relationships that have left you so cautious that even if you don't think about it, your intuition has an automatic "senser" ... Of course this probably can't be true in all situations.. I'm sure that what you said here:

Anyway I talked to my dad who is very similar to me interpersonally and it seems like it is more psychological. Fear of intimacy, fear of the response from the person, and lack of full understanding of social do's and don'ts. ...is true in a lot of those cases to with hugs and stuff.

And I also have thought this over a lot for myself.. I feel like I'm not as alone now even though I knew others must experience it- sorry, it's not that I'm happy about it but that I've happened to find someone else who understands.

Hope I was insightful... maybe?

[Caliwany]

Your post was most definitely insightful. I am guessing it is a combo of clairvoyance/sensitivity and psychological. For example, at work, this guy made this comment indicating envy. I told my husband about how much it bothered me. How I felt hatred from it (it was just a normal comment) and I hated that someone could associate that with me. He (a "normal" guy) said that on a scale of 1-10 the comment was, at worst, a 2 when to me it was a 3 conservatively. I think we just feel emotional energy so much more easily than others and are more affected by it. Relationship are much deeper and meaningful too...as is the hurt. Maybe that is why touching means so much more...and how we must protect ourselves so we don't get too close and thus get really hurt.

I hope I am not picking up background info in all cases though because I really don't touch most people even friends who have proven themselves. I think it might be more related to privacy. Like maybe I will pick something up that would violate their privacy and/or give them something I hold private.

It sucks being like this though because it makes things more lonely. I am thinking we are at different stages of life and I can tell you that it is all worth it. Just as the bad is really bad...the good is really good. You just have to wait for it. You *will* need that patience later on as you will need it for those you do become close to. Our lives are not easy but we are here as messengers and to help elevate others. It is just that those who are not ready do not understand us...but those who are will appreciate us like nothing you have ever known.

[fil_nurser]

I am completely opposite. Sometimes I feel compelled to huge or touch people...may be not complete strangers, but people I work with.
I will be walking down the hall and I will thing...oh "so in so" needs a huge! So I will go to their office and inform them that I'm not weird or creepy but you told me you need a huge....and than I will give the huge. I is "always" received...and sometimes I get tears and a "how did you know?" I just tell them...you told me.
I think that by hugging them it is a transfer of energy...energy that maybe I had, that they needed.
The feeling is so compelling that I have to answer it.

[Caliwany]

I have a weird quirk and wanted to know if anyone had any insight.

I have an issue with touching. I really don't touch people unless they are extremely close to me and feel weird when they touch me. Now, this is not your typical "I don't like to be touched" thing. For me touching is incredibly intimate and I don't touch them out of respect. I feel like I am crossing a boundary. As I type this I can see how this can come across as an abuse issue (was not abused that I know of) but I am also extremely sensitive to energy from people. I was once in a bar and this guy stood next to me and all I could see and feel was black. I had to put my husband in between me and him because it was so bad. So I am wondering if I don't touch people because their energies are too intense that way or not. I really don't like to do it so I haven't tried to see what it is like to give more detail.

With my loved ones I am almost addicted to touching them. I love the way their skin feels and their specific warmth. I want to be near them and touching them almost the whole time (I don't because that is just weird and clingy). I am a very tactile person in all areas.

If this is more paranormally based what is it and can I develop a skill from it? If not I'll just chock it up to extreme quirkiness.