[StivRichardOff]

Hi everyone,
I really want to get involved with this board. This is my first real post.

I guess I have a couple of immediate concerns. First, I have some "events" that I think are going to happen--that I feel very, very certain about--things that I have felt for years, but they haven't happened yet. I consider myself a novice, really about the last 5 years or so. Sometimes (mostly) I feel that every day that passes and these things haven't happened--well it feels like some crisis of faith. The thing is, they are not just ideas floating out there in some nebulous timeframe. I feel and see signs pertaining to them all of the time. The other part about them is they directly affect my life--hence my great concern and frustration.

My other concern is that I feel like I am being called into this "world"--this mystic world--but I have no teacher in the physical. There was someone who I thought could teach, but that relationship ended. That is why I am so looking forward to learning here.

Thank you for you time,
Jeanette

[mArVHDO6]

Well Jeanette Isis

You learn by reading, observing and listening
Once you can understand yourself
Then you can understand others
Its fun being an observer of life
Its fun learning

Have a look around and see what you find
You will find things of interest
That you are attracted to
What you find yourself not attracted to
Just let go and don't bother yourself with it

For what you are attracted to
Is the line of interest you should pay attention to

hermie

[xanaxist]

The journey to awakening is slow and sometimes confusing. There will be times when you "feel" like you have fallen off your path. Do not worry.

Confront all fears and thoughts that do not serve you in the highest good.

Look within.. for all answer are there. There is a veil you have noticed ,now is the time to reach out and touch it. It is real.

What is on the other side is Truth and this Truth is good.

You are only a fraction of your "True and Full" self. Once you consider this as a real possibility you will be "shown" the way.

Hermit is right ...follow your heart ( and don't let the mind control you or your learning. I am very happy for you it is an exciting time...

All is Well...

[StivRichardOff]

Thanks for your responses. I think what I am worried about is that, I don't know, that I am not wise enough to really be receiving some of my information. I kinda feel like, "who am I?" I was just an engineer trying to make it in the world, and now I am someone who is gone the complete opposite direction. I feel like I have no frame of reference to evaluate what is happening to me. Yet at the same time, I can look back into childhood and see that the seeds have always been there.

I suppose I worry that my ego misinterprets, so I try to stay humble. I come up with ideas, but I usually say to myself that I could be wrong. Thing is, my efforts to stay humble have crossed over to self-doubt. I suppose I am looking for some validation so it will be easier to trust myself. How can I be a benefit to others if I don't even have confidence in myself?

Thanks for letting me air my thoughts.
Jeanette